Also, suicide watch is something I thought about but honestly I feel that is more a likely situation for the abuser. He has a history of threats and mental instability. It still makes me sad.

That is difficult, wrapping your head around feeling sad to lose a family member due to them becoming a monster but still being unable to let go of the many memories from before. I was very close to this person for 30 years and the betrayal is hitting me so hard, harder each day it seems.

More likely this person will be put away forever (already looking at 50 years) he probably wouldn't last that long. Our worst fear is that he gets killed in prison. He had a difficult life and it isn't an excuse AT ALL it just adds to the general misery of the situation.

I must have really needed to vent this morning, thanks for listening this far.