Title: I'm starving, asked my aunt 20 euros to eat and she humiliated me to the point I feel like I don't deserve to live. Any advice on how to not feel this worthless?

https://old.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/om5ohx/im_starving_asked_my_aunt_20_euros_to_eat_and_she/

Background story: I'm in my 30s, disabled, mentally ill and completely on my own. I was able to work here and there until the pandemic hit and I was left unemployed.

My life has been hell since, to the point I tried to commit suicide. Being in lockdown, with no friends, unable to afford bills sent me into a spiral of destruction. After the suicide attempt I tried to get back on my feet but then I was infected with Covid and that was a nightmare on it's own. I'm still dealing with the effects of that... I have been struggling, both mentally, physically, financially and started considering suicide again, I'm in so much pain, my life sucks so much that it seems like the only option.

I have been starving for almost three days. Ran out of the food I get from the food pantry and I'm only getting money by the end of the month. I contacted my aunt and politely asked if she could borrow me 20 euros for food. She came to my house and humiliated me. Blamed me for being poor, said she didn't care I was sick because there are a lot of sick people and they are not struggling and told me to not mess with her because she would ruin my life ( this was after I told her that everyone tells me she talks shit about me because I'm poor and disabled which is true because she does it to my face).

Any advice on how to deal with this? I completely understand if she doesn't want to give me any money because it's her money, she can do whatever she wants with it but I feel like there was no need to humiliate me and I'm her relative, she watched me grow up, it hurts.

After she left I had to control myself not to kill myself because I felt like a piece of trash, the lowest of the low. I would never leave a family member or anyone else hungry and I would never humiliate them because they're struggling but that's just me.

The funny part is their post history indicates they are drug addict with Borderline Personality Disorder, and then she's wondering why her aunt doesn't want to give her money or be nice to her?

And recently he/she/it wants to get a sex change. Kek.

Is there anyone on reddit who doesn't want to get a sex change?