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[–]oofreesouloo 5 insightful - 2 fun5 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 2 fun -  (1 child)

You sound pretty similar to me! When I was a kid I was a tomboy - most of my friends were guys and I thought girls were "boring" and hated dolls, dresses, things "stereotypically feminine". I've never been an "hardcore tomboy" though. For example, I've always loved to have my hair long and hated cutting it. As years gone by, I started gradually liking more and more feminine things (and women as well LMAO) to the point things inverted. I started to absolutely love everything about women, femininity, make up, dresses, fashion, etc etc etc. I started to think women were this like wow beings and boys started to become neutral to me. Practically all my friends were females and even to this day I rarely ever have male friends. When I do, they most likely feminine and gay or bi. So I ended up becoming a femme (not a high maintenance one though). I still have some "boyish" interests like I love sports for example (I hate watching them, only playing them), but don't we all have some "feminine" and "masculine" interests? And I started to not like masculinity as well. I look at my past, and sometimes I cringe like hard. Lmao. Things literally inverted. And yes, despite me enjoying a lot femininity, I feel like I see the world in a totally different way than other women, straight or bi. So yeah, this is it. Great post

[–]QueenOfTheNorth[S] 5 insightful - 1 fun5 insightful - 0 fun6 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Hard relate to men becoming neutral and women becoming goddesses... In films and TV shows nowadays I can't tell what male would be considered attractive or unattractive anymore and when I guess, my straight friends are always like "ew really??" I don't know! On the flip side I'm always watching female actresses on the screen and thinking wow, gorgeous... One thing I secretly like about the female form being objectified in media is the way that the camera almost always pans on women, lol, and focuses on female nudity, while you might see a hairy chest at most with men. I knew I was definitely a lesbian when I caught myself always subconsciously checking out every girl I passed on the street (in the causal up and down way you look at strangers walking towards you, NOT leering!) but men were invisible to me, unless they were threatening in some way.

I feel like being a lesbian means existing only for yourself. I feel so sorry for women who constantly have to worry about appealing to the male gaze. I love that about being exclusively female attracted