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[–]QueenOfTheNorth[S] 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Thank you for sharing! Personally from ages 6-11 I remember having very close girl best friends, who I would become obsessed with and kind of possessive lol. I'd follow them around everywhere, court them by giving them things (one girl I gave a glow in the dark bracelet which I told her to always wear, another girl I wrote a list of "10 things I like about you" with coloured markers as a gift. Illustrated of course) and I'd get unreasonably jealous when other people tried to get close to them. I'd actively discourage and try to stain the name of their guy crushes, lmao. Then the girls wouldn't give me the level of closeness I wanted anymore and I'd get frustrated for some mysterious reason and fall madly in love with another girl. My longest one of these was with a girl called Rosa up until she 13, and around 12-13 I always wanted to hug, share her bed during sleepovers etc. It wasn't sexual yet at all, just a desire for non-sexual closeness, but probably a sign in retrospect?

YES I hate all of the lesbians with exceptions bullshit. I literally don't find any male celebrity attractive, ever, they look like thumbs to me... I just don't get it. Even the more "pretty boy" actors like Leonardo DiCaprio which I repeatedly see so called lesbians obsess over do nothing for me. The most interest I've ever shown in males is when it comes to musicians, but that's about their work, not how they look... I find men so bland to look at artistically. All smooth lines where there should be curves

[–]oofreesouloo 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

That's so cute omg lmao. You're a very protective woman haha :) I totally understand you. I also had really close friendships with girls when I was child, but they were really really few because I was a tomboy as a kid and practically all my friends were guys. But I still remember very well my girl best friend of kindergarten (I was maybe 4?) and remember feel really sad that she is leaving... I remember us giving hands to each other. I also remember having a crush towards another girl during my childhood (5-11 old), I was totally fixated on that girl in a way I've never been towards a boy and none of the "bf's" I had 😂 and I would get really sad and hurt if she would say something I didn't like. But thing is at the time I didn't know that those were crushes... I thought it wasnt possible for me, as a girl, to like other girls you know? I only reflected on it later during puberty.

And yeah, those women aren't lesbians anyway. If you like ANY men in a physical/sexual/romantic way, you aren't a lesbian. Simple as that

EDIT: I totally forgot to tell this super funny thing until I realised I was a lesbian. Every time I played games, I would ALWAYS choose to be a man, instead of a woman because I wanted to get women's attention and have lots of gf's lmao. I used to play online games where you had a character you created and talked to actual real people. I had lots of success and had several gf LMAO.

Bottom line: I thought I NEEDED to be a guy to date women lmao as homosexuality wasn't exposed to me at all growing up.