If I don't take mother into account, then 23 years. It never happened. Never was even close. That's one of my first blackpills actually, ending of the primary school (we have 6 classes in primary school so we are around 12-13 there) I see all girls and guys hugging each other, girls crying because they will not see their peers etc and I am sitting alone in my desk. Everyone's parents were there too and my mother asked me, why am I not going and hugging other's too. I said that "But, they don't want me to do that and they won't miss me. Me neither I think." I remember that my mother was kinda shocked, but she was standing there and she understood that it's like that, that her child really isn't missed. I failed as a child.