That's interesting. I don't think little girls generally enjoy being small. Most kids want to grow up to be bigger than they are, or at least that's my experience. It's frustrating being a kid because you're generally powerless. I don't believe girls end up wanting to be small until they realize that society will shame them for being big. Like every kid knows being fat is "bad," but it's especially considered bad for girls and women. They might need to get a little older before they realize being tall is also shamed in women.

Maybe because I internalized male values so heavily, I was eager to be as tall as possible. But a more conforming girl would probably have realized as she got older that being tall would make her not as popular or conventionally attractive, and thus would have preferred to fit in over gaining height.

It was/is really difficult to separate dysphoria feelings from eating disorder/dysmorphia feelings

That makes sense. Sorry to hear you struggled with that.