I've been living outside the US for a long time. If you see your native country from outside it does have a red-pilling effect. Also, I tend to be bitter in general. I saw a bar called Bitter & Twisted in Southeast Asia and maybe that sums me up pretty much. As for cuckoldry, it's the worst thing you can do in a marriage — destroying trust. It's strange that there is no word for a woman whose husband fools around, that I know of. I was no prude before getting married but I believe we should take marriage seriously or not bother with it at all.