xAcidRainx

I've always liked females (obviously), looking back on behaviors I had as a child, like having intense feelings for certain girls I knew, of course at the time I never even considered it to be a "crush", which only confused the hell out of me.

But it wasn't until I was 12 (I'm almost 18 now) that I became aware of it, it was like a light that flickered on one day.

Now because of my religious upbringing when I lived with my mothers family, I was taught being gay was wrong, so naturally I was ashamed and afraid.

So for a while I tried playing it off as if I was bi or pansexual/comp het shit (despite this, I never once doubted my attraction to females) and the only ones who knew were my online friends, who weren't fooled by that idea, and I was asked about it a few times.

The first person who found out IRL was unfortunately, my mother. I told her out of anger during a counselling session, her reaction was to cry, say how it's a sin etc (she told me I was going to hell for it one time as well). So I was discouraged from telling anyone else for a while, but eventually I told my dad, sister, grandma (dads mom), they are fine with it and told me to consider the source as my mom is a bitch to begin with.

Mid 2016 is when I stopped the pussy-footing around and took on the "lesbian label", because at that point I knew for A FACT that I don't like guys. And I couldn't be happier now.

Sorry for the wall of text lol.