SillyDeer

Hello!

Rant. Lesbian here, not of the butch variety. Butch are not the only lesbians.

I am not bi or pan, and I am pissed off for being chased by bi, pans, couples, poly, the T, or whatever those things are. I am not a playground for you. I am not here so you can explore yourself. I am so sick of it! I am not here because I cannot find the right man. I have received the filthiest messages on any dating app, especially by the B and the T, I see no difference there. Lesbians with long hair are not a playground for you. I have received, first messages, "you are so cute I cannot wait for you to be my first". Who the heck do people think they are?

I have degrees and one is psych, so I actually could tell you who I think they are.

Life is god damn fecking hard as a lesbian, and people like me it is harder because everyone thinks I am a god damn fecking experiment and that I cannot be a lesbian, and I must be one because something bad must have happened to me.

Dating has been ruined by women who are exploring for those of us real lesbians who are not butch. Ruined! And feck all I am not interested in your hot take about it. I will not apologize. I have so many screen shots, hundreds. I

was also a moderator on OKCupid. I saw the same things over and over on that thing by the bi, pan, and the T.

I also have degrees. And I also posted here under a different time under a different name with links to my Youtube channel (because I have more than one degree, and I talk about psychology and paraphilias in one of my videos. I will not say who I am anymore though).

I have drifted in and out of this space after receiving gross messages from users. Apparent lesbians.

I have decided to come back, but will probably leave. I was an active user back on Peddit before the banwaves hit under a different user name. Some of us chatted I am certain.

But here is what I do know:

• I am active in the real world and am about to cancel myself, including my career even though I cannot afford it. But I cannot be silent. I am fighting back against the current orthodoxies of CRT and Gender dogma.

• If I receive a crap message, I will screen shot, and post back. There is no reason to bully others. I have seen so much infighting on Ovarit (where I stopped participating), The Terf Collective group, Spinster and more. I have no idea if it is your age, if you are young, or what the hell is going on, but fecking rope it in. I am not a fan of MM of the feminist current, even though I pitched articles to her and almost wrote with her (we actually did edit an article together, it was the worst time ever), because she is terrible to work with, but she even makes a good point--stop actively bullying one another. If this place is incapable of active bullying, well, you are not going to get new people her. And you should not operate without new people.

*I am an out lesbian, and I am suing multiple orgs right now for so many violations of me, demanding my ovaries get removed for nothing, my uterus, getting triple poked for lab draws, being told I must date the male receptionist, stalked in person, and more.

And I am done!

I have had known T stalk me as well. In person! Chased me because most T do not want the butch, because--they are hetero men!

I have been talked to in chitty ways by every butch I ever eve interacted with, ever, at lesbian events because they think I am a "tourist" because the pans ruined dating for all real lesbians who are not butch.

I am a loving giving person who volunteers with the elderly and animals, who has many hobbies and an education, and I have seen, and experienced nothing but a dumpster fire of chit in these subs, on Ovarit, and peddit. Are you actively trying to push people away? Is the attachment trauma that fecking bad?

I am with the writer of this that it is not a place for weirdos.

Most my friends are men who are gay, because they have their shit together.

Fecking hell.

Stone me. I know you will.