Living with Epilepsy - Seizures, Doctors & Anxiety - This is one of the best videos I’ve seen to describe the epileptic experience (it aligns with mine, especially with how psychedelic my seizures feel, the feeling of increasing inescapable “impending doom” & what my triggers are).

Enza · 2021-07-25T16:37:19+00:00

This video is has half the length and is shorter: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaxJzSUn3PM

It too, pretty much accurately describes my experience except it doesn’t sound as scary from his perspective unless he’s holding back. One of the worst parts of having a seizure disorder (really, what epilepsy is - epilepsy is just a blanket term for seizure disorders which vary from individual to individual), is how stigmatized and uneducated people are as to how terrible it actually feels, before and after. I’ve met many ignorant people who thought the fact that I developed epilepsy meant my cognitive or intellectual abilities were impaired (I mean they are, but that’s not from epilepsy, I’m just a natural-born retart).

It feels like the most insidious, evil psychedelic drug, before and after, and waking up from it is horrible - for the first 30-60 min you don’t know where you are, who you are, what reality or earth even is, until you just snap to at a moment in time. Going into it the confusion and deja vu are intense, and it feels like you’re being chased by something more evil than evil. And during the experience, you’re literally in a black void. You have no thoughts. No feelings or emotions. All I know for sure is there’s blackness, but you don’t think. You aren’t fine or not fine with the situation as nothing matters, you can’t think. There is no you. Some part just recognizes there’s a darkness and it can feel like forever, which feels like what leads to part of the confusion when coming to.

Just thought people would find this interesting as it isn’t often talked about and seizures are very stigmatized. They don’t affect you intellectually, and brake dancing isn’t as fun or funny as it looks tbh. I can respect a good seize the day joke tho.

Enza · 2021-07-24T04:09:28+00:00

Within seconds of seeing her, hearing her voice, her facial expression, I knew on a primal, instinctual level, she was destined to become my waifu.

UwU.

Enza · 2021-07-22T12:23:50+00:00

https://preview.redd.it/e7zkwxsomqc71.jpg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=7375d30e2b2dc231042d6ffb4144ea914fe187b8

https://preview.redd.it/anyqqpuomqc71.jpg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=ddb384bccdcc363da08318271eb89ef5adfabe5b

Enza · 2021-07-22T10:20:39+00:00

This video is so old, and randomly someone links to it every couple of years and every time I see it I laugh.

This time I caught it from here lol: https://www.reddit.com/r/druggardening/comments/ooq24y/when_the_adderall_kicks_in/

(I know, seriously, fuck Reddit. The only reason I use it is for a specific sub I’m sure you know of, and in the meanwhile I am subbed to like 3 other subs I find interesting and useful that make up my front page. Drug gardening is one of them - if it weren’t for that sub, this medicine would have never been!: https://imgur.com/a/gVlNJLg, as an epileptic, that was honestly such a medicinal home grow and users there helped me and taught me to do a late harvest and allow the trichomes to amber so there’s more cbd and cbn, less thc. That sub is truly great for medical/natural drug gardening, and as I’m sure you’d assume, everyone is kind and friendly there - no clown world lmao).

I was working on making a sub like that here with an IP2 user way back in the day but it just never happened :( wasn’t much interest and dude dipped when IP2 had to leave due to the attacks on SaidIt from people who wanted IP2 gone.

Enza · 2021-07-21T11:43:58+00:00

This motherfucker just used a speech about how corporations, media and politicians are coming at us from every angle and each time we consume something digitally we’re going into “mindless learning mode”, which can in turn lead to us being programmed, consumer addicts without even realizing it - then hypocritically advertised both of his bands albums which are also about the same topic 😂

So he’s aware of the dopamine feedback loop, social media and consumer addiction - is making a psa about it saying you can get in so deep you’re not even aware - and is advertising two different albums about the topic that are unique cuz they mean something lmao.

This dude is a good salesman. Not that I disagree with anything he said, but if this was solely a psa, why the band AND double album shoutout, even flashing the album artwork quick.

This shit was a funny meta advertisement lmao!

Enza · 2021-07-21T09:19:32+00:00

I’ve been learning a lot about Tyson lately as I was really into his podcast when it first started and still enjoy it to this day.

I never knew his daughter passed when she was four due to trying to run on his treadmill. This video clip broke my heart, seeing how Mike has transformed over the years. It really seems like DMT saved him, not to go all Joe Rogan. After the DMT ceremony, he seemed like himself still, but just at peace.

There was a long period of time where Mike was not at peace with himself, was self-medicating heavily, and the media tore him apart.. what was going on behind the scenes, was fucked up though.

I know Mike uses violent words to describe his emotions and feelings, but I honestly see the dude as a gentle giant - at the end of this clip he said “I just have to grow up.. I have to start being a man”, because he couldn’t take it and ended the interview because he started to cry..

He’s more self-aware than the media every portrayed him to be, he just had serious demons and although everything looked golden for him, things were still tough and got bad..

Enza · 2021-07-20T22:35:11+00:00

I made this our “new second announcement” - we’ve had the Lao Tzu video up there for over a year now as our second announcement (which I still recommend anyone who comes across this to check out, it relates to this in some ways too!), and I like this video a lot - It truly is great life advice I think everyone could benefit from.

I hope anyone who comes across this gets some benefit from both the OP & Lao Tzu video!

Enza · 2021-07-20T22:28:33+00:00

I don’t really agree with this video.

Yes, there was a leader - but I don’t believe Fight Clubs’s “followers” were blind or ignorant followers (“the space monkeys”). They too, had come to the same conclusion about life and society as did the main character/“Tyler”. They too were upset and tired of the corruption and bullshit. So they were introduced to fight club.

They weren’t mindless followers. They were into it 100%, life pushed them to that point like it pushed the main character into creating Tyler, an alter ego who could take the form of a leader and was charismatic. There was no fight club when he broke; so he made it. Had there been one and he was handed a card or invited to a fight club as were the others, he would have become a “space monkey” too.

Enza · 2021-07-20T19:07:43+00:00

Abra kadabra, Alakazam!

^{^arePokémon}

Enza · 2021-07-19T06:37:53+00:00

I wish you were my parent and raised me. And I’m no salesman or hoe.

Happy birthday, big brain, I genuinely hope it’s a good one!

Edit: Axiom 7 - did you know the root origin of the word pain, actually means to be punished?

“I’m in pain..”

“I’m in punishment”..

pain (n.)

Late 13th century - Peine - "the agony suffered by Christ"; c. 1300, "punishment," especially for a crime, "legal punishment of any sort" (including fines and monetary penalties); also "condition one feels when hurt, opposite of pleasure," (modern), including mental or emotional suffering, grief, distress; from Old French peine "difficulty, woe, suffering, punishment, Hell's torments" (11c.), from Latin poena "punishment, penalty, retribution, indemnification" (in Late Latin also "torment, hardship, suffering"), from Greek poinē "retribution, penalty, quit-money for spilled blood," from PIE-kwei - "to pay, atone, compensate" (see penal).

Enza · 2021-07-17T05:48:48+00:00

This song came into my head as soon as I read the title.

Enza · 2021-07-16T19:33:53+00:00

Hypothetically, this song and video could have been put in a time capsule, dug up, released today and marketed as new, and people wouldn’t question this being a new Clipse track (myself included).

They (largely Pharrell & The Neptunes, no disrespect) were so underrated back then & way ahead of their time sonically. Artists like Eminem, 50 Cent, lil Wayne (which are all talented in their own way; don’t get me wrong) & one-hit-wonders like MIMS were taking up all of the spot light, it’s actually amazing.

Enza · 2021-07-16T18:16:40+00:00

I agree, thanks for sharing /u/JasonCarswell.

Xoxo

Enza · 2021-07-16T18:00:00+00:00

I wish I had seen this before I made your other video an announcement - it’s a shame we’re only allowed two announcements. Three or four, would be awesome and the perfect amount imho. Any more than that is unnecessary. Three is prolly the sweet spot.

But yeah, awesome video!

Enza · 2021-07-15T03:59:00+00:00

A more serious airsoft video (this is the video that lead me down the youtube airsoft rabbit hole): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUCSiABn2ls

Seriously - this shit looks fun, and the community looks cool too. There are some bitches as there are in every community, but the age of players ranges from young to old, and outside of the op (like in the vid in this comment), people seem super chill.

It’s like doing gun combat scrimmages with different scenarios lol it really looks fun! I have to try it one day, but it seems expensive to get into..

Enza · 2021-07-15T00:38:37+00:00

I can respect all of that!

But I’m sure when the internet first came out, people felt the same way. The masses didn’t know where it would lead them 30 years later.

who knows what our future holds..

Edit: cuz img didn’t work: https://mobile.twitter.com/GameStop/status/1414696625218342933

Enza · 2021-07-14T21:29:01+00:00

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Enza · 2021-07-14T21:23:58+00:00

Nah I was just responding to sword, not you! Sorry!!

Ima check it out, thanks!

Enza · 2021-07-14T18:29:02+00:00

but it’s a mindset

Hipster-pagan, without a doubt!

Enza · 2021-07-14T18:18:12+00:00

Edit: gonna remove this since you saw it as I’m already working on a template for another sub. PM me tho pls so I don’t forget!

Enza · 2021-07-14T17:07:25+00:00

Depends........

Are you in a metropolitan area?

Enza · 2021-07-14T16:42:14+00:00

Honestly, convoluted, no. Speculative yes. I’ve been following this too, the context all in order gave me this feeling too. Especially with the Tweets from the head developers of GameStop’s NFT. Then all the hidden messages in code, or straightforward ones like making and deleting an account within a day named “leavemeanon” which isn’t the first time that “phrase” has popped up from GameStop’s side either, while sharing insanely knowledgeable DD about the market, ETFs, and hinting at this being the ultimate solution.

GameStop also purposefully set their nft up for Bastille Day, and it fits the three month law for NFTs (they announced and started in April, so this was done on purpose date-wise). Everything combined, and in context, makes insane sense.

I understand if this is too tinfoil for you or anyone else tho, I know you’ll know what I mean (as will others), when I say this is a thing you had to be there for to truly feel, and these events that lead to this DD weren’t caught by everyone and happened slowly over months - yet are all linked by dates, statements or the phrase “game on anon” and “leave me anon”.

I still think people should read this without bias, and take this concept in for just a moment. Whether you believe it or not.

Enza · 2021-07-14T14:58:54+00:00

I need one of those!

I wouldn’t even have sex with her, just talk to her about GameStop DD because no one wants to listen to me but internet people.

Enza · 2021-07-14T14:57:30+00:00

/u/AmericanMuskrat

Edit: you gotta read this, they’re downvoting it so heavily dude. I’ve never seen a post with a high amount of upvotes & rewards on reddit drop to 300 post karma, even during election time. They’re trying to bury this without removing it.

Enza · 2021-07-14T14:29:02+00:00

Did you need to downvote yourself?

(Upvoted!!)

Who’s next?

Enza · 2021-07-13T23:57:49+00:00

No arguments from me there!

Enza · 2021-07-13T22:17:07+00:00

np!

:)

Enza · 2021-07-13T21:26:34+00:00

Did you know the Latin root for “Pagan” simply means villager? While the three big religions were spreading to “metropolitan” areas, there were small villages that didn’t have access to these religions (or the religions didn’t spread to them yet).

Now today, we call people who pray to multiple Gods/Goddesses, or aren’t of the three big religions, Pagans. But a pagan is simply a “villager”.

Pagan comes from a Latin word paganus, meaning villager, rustic, civilian, and itself comes from a pāgus which refers to a small unit of land in a rural district.

They control us & our thoughts with language, and they’ve bastardized it so much, we don’t even realize what we’re truly saying anymore..

Enza · 2021-07-13T21:08:54+00:00

The POTUS should kneel to no one - bow, nod, shake hands out of respect, but to get on your knees?

Fucking embarrassing bro.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dbn4i7_CFIM

Enza · 2021-07-13T20:56:00+00:00

You gotta accept clown world, otherwise life really hurts. As cringe as it may sound, don’t let this shit bitter you - just laugh! It’s not in your personal control.

Enza · 2021-07-13T05:20:41+00:00

This is honestly prolly the best compilation I’ve seen. Most use clips that we’ve all seen and have been circulated many times over; I saw a bunch of great, “new ones” in this.

And how they made the video too, it has “light” commentary added to it, to point out how ridiculous it all is but let’s the clips speak for themselves. I actually laughed a few times.

Edit: and I don’t even think they used c’mon man! once!

I laughed so damn hard when he introduced his wife as his sister. And apparently he’s been running for senate the whole time, not POTUS!

Edit 2: rewatching and just :37 alone is golden lol, the first clip is golden. It’s all hilarious.

Enza · 2021-07-12T23:15:13+00:00

Its liberal capitalism as it would've been if left unmolested by globalism.

Imperial Japan in contrast had robust families and cultural life.

True!

Fucking baseball, man..

Enza · 2021-07-12T05:01:44+00:00

You see all that greasy ass hair?

Can you imagine the funk and how bad it smelled in that house while they were recording with all those hormonal and unhygienic people stuffed to the brim in it?

Enza · 2021-07-09T15:08:30+00:00

I can see how their view of people can get "mechanical", though. Interactions with officers can seem cold, but their brains are processing all the scenarios of what could happen in a given situation.

Exactly. This is what I meant when I said “I understood police more”. The shit in the videos above, where two men’s lives were just saved only for the rescuers to be killed..

That would make me cold too. I wouldn’t care about anything but doing my job, and getting home to my family alive that day.

Also, I never even knew that was a thing. That’s an awesome idea, I’m sure it’s good for networking too. Thank you for sharing the experience and idea!

Enza · 2021-07-08T23:09:00+00:00

Shakira, Shakira!!

^{^obby}

Enza · 2021-07-08T23:06:40+00:00

↕️

(i just wanted 2 be included)

Enza · 2021-07-08T22:23:24+00:00

I was just on a binge watching videos like this with body cam footage from police departments released for transparency. I had no idea things were this bad. This gave me a new insight into why cops are the way they are and I have a lot more respect for them. These two videos alone honestly adrenalized me. I know I wouldn’t be able to handle seeing everything they do. Literally any stop could be death for them, and these videos show it.. and it sucks.

In this video, you see death happen within seconds, over a stupid mistake, and the man shoots at, injures and kill the people who just saved his life (The 13-year Fire fighter vet who was there with him from the beginning and helped save him was the first one dead).

Another similar video - a gang banger is forced to the hospital for his own physical well being, everyone is taking care of him. A HUGE amount of red flags in this video too - I’m sure these videos are used for police training now.

He too, starts a shoot out but this time in a hospital (the cop was so chill and wasn’t even worried about him being a criminal - was just worried about his health, and let him get in the ambo after barely searching him), and inures the people trying to save him. Then like the other evil asshole in the OP, begs for help once he’s put down when this never had to happen, and they never stood a chance of fighting their way out in the beginning.. and these people just care about you, are doing their jobs, and just saved your lives:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GR7UiLw9Ww

Here’s a bonus one for you guys, this one broke my heart, but as nice as the cops were, they really mucked this one up (again, you’ll notice many red flags - they could have prevented this):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8XTw52fwGKI

Enza · 2021-07-03T23:06:39+00:00

Idk.. I feel some type of way about seeing all this food thrown out, even if it is perishable..

Call me a socialist/commie/whatever, I really could care less about teams in the political world theater at this point, but I really feel states should have some kind of state-funded program in agreement with certain places, who purposefully over-produce a certain amount of food. They could collect, re-seal and date the product on the back so you know if it’s safe to distribute or not (they are also protected from law suits via the good samaritan act), and could have centers where the food could be redistributed that next morning. This would also create new jobs.

If certain places have funding to allocate towards heavy drug use, distribution of new needles, narcon, and even heroin if used in controlled centers with doctors (which I’m all for and think is actually a great thing and studies do show it leads to more people becoming sober, as well as prevents deaths by allowing people to use in a safe environment. It gives addicts access to help whenever it’s needed medically or if they decided it’s time for a change of lifestyle, help of all forms is available 247 in those centers), why can’t we fund a state-run food collection service for companies that purposefully over-produce food?

It’s honestly not like it would mess with the money the business makes - most, if not all people who could afford it would go to the business and pay for it fresh just as they did before and wouldn’t have the time to wait at a center to get the food, especially if they’re tryna get a donut before work. And we all know in the end, there’s money for such programs.

This is kinda fucked up.

Enza · 2021-07-02T18:16:10+00:00

Fuck the daily mail (and all msm)... but here it goes:

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2539704/The-worlds-ineligible-bachelor-Iranian-wash-60-years-smokes-animal-faeces-whip-mean-decomposed-porcupine.html

https://www.businesstoday.in/amp/latest/trends/story/meet-the-worlds-dirtiest-man-who-hasnt-showered-in-65-years-284961-2021-01-20

https://www.zmescience.com/other/feature-post/meet-80-year-old-iranian-hasnt-washed-60-years/amp/

Enza · 2021-07-02T02:31:18+00:00

but I don't get the point.

Enza · 2021-07-01T03:55:30+00:00

If I fits, I sits, I insist.

Qt!

Enza · 2021-07-01T03:41:50+00:00

Never eat anything bigger than your head.

And no naggers allowed.

Enza · 2021-07-01T02:55:35+00:00

Title pretty much says it all.. Each time you think you understand the aesthetic he’s going for or think things are turning around and it’s starting to look cool, he ruins it leaving you scratching ur head. I’ve never found a custom-built nature home or temporary shelter in one of these videos to be ugly, no matter the quality of the video or materials & tools used.. but this guy had access (as well as professional training..) to tools, materials & a budget most creators in this “genre” of videos don’t have.

He managed to turn a really cool concept, into an ugly collage of holes carved into the side of a mountain as well as a super tiny living space that’s tight, has no bubble space and you’re always inches away from essentials like the bathroom/shower, the bedroom & the “hangout space” - that is if it isn’t another tiny hole carved into the side of the mountain thats disconnected, that he has to leave his “house” to access.. It’s super inconvenient and looks like he just did shit as he went along without thinking, and the guy spent over 4 years on this shit and it’s still not done yet - almost. It came out super ugly, he could’ve made this into a really dope home but idk what he was smoking.

Still an interesting watch to see the process, what he does, how his “plans” change over time, and what it ends up looking like... it amazes me how cramped it is, how sloppy everything, including the cement work (which he uses for everything, including the bathroom “counter”) looks, & how he managed to turn something natural that could have easily kept its natural feel, into a cramped dungeon from medieval times that was just discovered & is half-caved in.

What a waste of almost five years lol.

Look at what these motherfuckers are capable of in 30 days; imagine if they had access to his tools, budget & materials?!

Shakira, Shakira!!

Enza

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