What motivates me? Jesus. Not only that most of the circumstantial evidence support the hypothesis that he rose from the dead, but that a few fishermen from 2000 years ago were told the end which we are heading towards. Not only that, the NWO practically publishes their plans for the future, but their plans are described in the last book of the Bible, if a little cryptically. The only explanation that makes sense is that they wrote the Bible, are fulfilling it on purpose, or God, by telling the ending from the beginning, shows as that He exists, and that heaven is real.