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[–][deleted] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (20 children)

I only can explain as best as i can. These things aren't trivial or "easy" to understand. But i only can imagine, think, understand, learn or combine.

I just can't "feel" so well, i don't know how to better express this. Sorry again.

Most of the times i give my best effort and still "can't" be "heard". That is my "main" problem. Or glitch. Or whatever you want to call this. That is why i "hack" words and language every day. It is a "skill" or "hobby" of mine.

[–]Anman 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (19 children)

Maybe you need more collagen in your diet.

[–][deleted] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (18 children)

Nice suggestion, i will consider.

But i already know, what has been severly damaged in my "core", so to say.

I'm working on constructing an individual "workaround" every second awake to better "hide" this glitch. Sadly i can "fix" this thing only so far, so to say, because every action so deep inside is very costly in time and energy.

On the other hand: It is an almost "unbelievable" "gift" at the same time, which has many more applications than even i myself know so far.

[–]Anman 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (17 children)

There is another thing we could try.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypb6Tmpzvzc

[–][deleted] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (16 children)

Try... i dare you. ;-)

"Maniac" is a label they often put on my forehead when i was younger. Before i learned and understood that age is irrelevant, so to say.

[–]Anman 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (15 children)

Doesn't matter the age, we are all one with Jesus. No matter how you get there.

[–][deleted] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (14 children)

I believe something else and it is a relative waste of energy to talk about this.

My beliefs only can be so firm because i built them myself. Otherwise i couldn't believe them.

These would be inconsistent then. And consistence is very important for me to not start "drifting" again and again. It is the small grain of "sanity" living in my head that keeps all the "chaos" in check, so to say.

[–]Anman 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (13 children)

If you are real, and as say you are, then your beliefs are to be treated as garbage, because you can't even consolidate your own thoughts. You will just perpetuate your retardation.

[–][deleted] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (12 children)

I easily can (even radically..) accept that you categorize and judge me as a part of your personal simulation like this.

This is very old wine for me, i omit, before even wasting any thought about it.

[–]Anman 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (11 children)

But do you understand?

  • I am fragmented and unstable

  • I make decisions entirely based upon my own fragmentation and instability.

  • These are the correct decisions.

So what is it?