i only know that everything that i have seen that labels itself as "anarchists" always turns out to be some loony organization like occupy wallstreet or antifa and i am pretty sure that i want nothing to do with that..

You won't get any argument from me here. These people are often just wannabe rebels with no understanding of the underlying philosophical ideology.

I would think you would find some academic interest in anarcho-communist theory, a lot of the things you are saying are what attracted me to it. There are at the very least some interesting ideas about achieving communism with libertarian leaning social values. Kropotkin is kind of the starting place for this, and Spanish Catalonia was able to achieve something resembling these ideas from 1936-1939 before their side lost the war.

Not saying it's perfect, or the answer to all of our problems, but it attempts to solve the right kind of problems, and it is certainly not discussed on it's merits nearly as much as it should be.