I don't know how other people do it. Even with a pretty robust online support network when the wife goes out of town I'm only cool for about a week and then I go nuts.
I'd stop it if I could. Obviously this is undesirable.
But it's not my failure I want to talk about, I want to know how people are okay with being alone. Is it a skill I can learn?
How are you okay with the crushing emptiness? How do you sleep without someone to cuddle with? How do you eat food when it's just you.
I haven't eaten anything in a week. I don't want to eat.
Everything hurts and death would be a mercy at this point.