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[–]Node 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

A switch just flipped one day

Interesting. I flipped mine manually, but much earlier.

I've tried to change it back with various different methods and none of them do jack squat.

Yep, frustrating. Some of those switches appear to be one time use only.

From your other comment, it sounds like you're still relatively young and under the influence of your hormones. Noted by your undue focus on the human female.

I will just point out here that it is possible to have a marriage or long term relationship with a female, but much denial of reality will be required. If you have trouble masking your problems or denying reality, acquiring one would lead to trouble. Like a failed shotgun suicide, you could end up far worse off than you are now.

only women matter and I'm just a burden.

This is untrue, and you will do better and be happier once you stop believing it. I mean, I'm not qualified to tell you what to do or believe, but I do know that saying negative things about yourself to yourself is a technique that's often successful in making you more miserable. You can still be the way you are without the need to deliberately make yourself more miserable.

Disclaimer: I don't know all that much about the autism, so read my opinions with that in mind.

Cheers \o

[–]Vulptex 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I don't want to get married or even date or have sex. The problem is all my developmental energy has been channeled towards exactly that and I'm barely capable of anything else now.

[–]Node 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Can you change your focus away from females and concentrate more on your other interests?

Do you have hobbies, or things you like to work on?

[–]Vulptex 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

I do not want sex or women. I want to focus on my hobbies. But my brain and body do not understand that and always trade in my ability in the latter for more in the former. Me just existing now pretty much gets girls chasing me so I'm very good at exactly what I don't care about. And it's cost me everything I actually do want.

My only focus on women is how much better life seems for them than us. They go through puberty and get breasts and periods and that's it, everything else continues as normal. For us everything we once knew changes, and not in a good way, as I already described. It's productive for the species but not good for us personally. On top of that women have hardly any social obligations, and there's something called the Women Are Wonderful Effect and Male Expendability which means humans of both sexes inherently care about female humans but couldn't care less about males. Because females are both the default state and serve a much wider range of natural roles than males, and because you need a lot more of them to reproduce as one male can impregnate thousands of females. This is also probably behind the unfortunate development of males compared to females. In nature's view we exist solely to continue the species and provide for females, and that's what I'm being given the tools for, and the ones I need for my hobbies and stuff I like are being traded in for them.

Probably because of autism I couldn't care less about society or the species but unfortunately my natural processes aren't aware of that. I feel like a ghost trapped in the body of a practically demonic species who can't think for themselves.