Ignore the other dicks' comments. I'll give you 3 karma-votes if you like but I've abstained thus far because I can't tell if you are able to withstand more negative attention from SaidIt dicks. There are some good folks here, but the asstrolls seem to be winning lately. And I don't know you so I don't know yet whether this is authentic or just a cry for attention.

The biggest question is: Are you motivated enough to try to tackle those things you hate?

1) Relationships are harder to get than ever in this age under these circumstances. What are you doing about this, online and/or offline? If you don't meet as many people as possible to increase your odds you simply won't meet them. If you are female you can likely find a friend in AmericanMuskrat/Mittens who thinks he's SaidIt's Casanova somehow.

2) Maintaining a good circadian rhythm helps in many ways, even if it's not easy (I struggle on this too). IMO, it's worth listening to your body, and trying your best to train it and your own habits into adopting a more or less "normal" sleep cycle.

3) Sex and sexuality is over-rated. Everyone else seems to get more than you, especially in media, and besides rare exceptions, boring couples get it more than anyone and even most of them aren't that active. More important than the sex-focused propaganda about identity is confidence. You be you. You become an expert in you. You are a human, which involves your ideas, skills, talents, and knowledge. You're already a decent typist, know steam, and are on the best free-thinking truth-seeking site. Keep working on those and more - and grow, and grow in confidence. Your lusts and self-expression and race are minor by comparison. Those are weaponized divisive factors to avoid.

4) Family is only as good as they are. Some folks are lucky, some folks are not, and some have none. Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter. Find new groups and tribes to hang with and know. Find local activist groups. If you still have sexuality hangups you might seek LGB groups to socialize with. I recommend Freedom groups who really don't care much about sexuality when there are MUCH bigger problems now and coming over the next decade or few. Find out when your next local rallies are. Make a little protest sign to be a conversation catalyst if you're shy to instigate introductions.

5) Practice, practice, practice. Don't beat yourself up about faux-pas. EVERYONE makes them and learns. That's how it goes. Some are naturally better than others, but that doesn't mean you should give up.

Maintain and expand your "I love:" list. It's VERY important to live in gratitude and compassion. Consider studying Zen Buddhism for more on this.