When I was younger I actually wanted to participate. I wanted to have kids, to make society better, to contribute to the world etc. But as I got older and started seeing more and more where I lived and where we are headed the more an extremely dark cloud of depression settled over me. The USA is done for, its only a matter of time. We severely fucked up. We are way too decadent, twisted, morally depraved. We have become the bad guys. Idk if we always were but we have now. Most people don't even seem to understand the magnitude of our problems. We have totally lost our direction, a crazy train off the rails. I'd leave this planet if I could but I cant, I don't know where to go. The evil has spread everywhere, all the pieces are moving into position and its only going to get worse. Idk what else to say about it only that its incredibly fucking depressing, demoralizing, and just dark as fuck clownworld. Good luck to everyone out there...good luck.