Perhaps at some point, it will occur to you, your actions are neither hard to predict as one who is seeking self-gratification, nor confusing. They're like the buzzing of a fly around a man's head as he gets a fly swatter. Realistically, the only way to deny them their gratification of control is to find something better to do that A) isn't run by soyboys that would sell their own mother's out to the highest bidder B) can contribute to your community even if it's in an obscure way. Otherwise what the hell good are ya.