Hobbies. Look I'm kind of childish. I still think toys are fun and couples kissing is gross. I'm into programming, video games, drawing, making videos, and a lot of creative and pretend stuff. I am sensitive and like to feel things deeply and vividly, something males are so bad at that even our physical senses are dulled. For me being monotone and irritable all the time is depressing. I was fine before puberty ruined it all.

There's a girl on this site, reddit, and ruqqus who is almost exactly the same as me and she is a fucking savant at everything almost instantly. I mean like she could singlehandedly outdo professionals in an insanely short time, casually, after just dabbling in something for a tiny bit. I can tell she's way better off than I was even before puberty and I fucking hate not being able to do all that. I was cheated. Life hates me, the whole world hates me and I exist only to suffer. All I can say is she is far better at being me than I am. And it's because girls don't lose all their talents and feelings and everything good in the womb and again in puberty like us because they're valuable to nature and we are worthless and have to grow up and live shitty lives to slave to the tribe. Couple that with the fact that I probably do have mild gender dysphoria and the envy is unbearable. This isn't the only "perfect" and godlike person I know but she is at the top of the list for me. I have serious envy issues too so I resent the world when I see it being unfair to me like this. And this is huge.