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[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 4 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 0 fun5 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

For me it was xanax. I got nearly 200 of them for a couple bucks shipping from Dr.X back in the day. I was gonna flip them and make a few bucks to buy more. A quick money maker if you will. When they arrived my wife wanted to know if we were gonna test them out. Well sure, I said. Then we spent 2 weeks doing stupid shit and spending every dime we had (I had just quit my job) and doing all our drugs (including the last of my mxe and 2cb) and didn't remember shit. Had to piece it all back together from texts, receipts, and pictures. Only came to when we dropped some acid and realized we didn't know wtf we had been doing. Took a long time to recover from that shit and I'll never do it again.

Now I do take etizolam for coming off other drugs and sometimes to relax at night but I am very fucking careful with it.

Also 3-meo-pcp (aka the greatest drug ever invented), but that is a story for another time.

[–]abu7 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

we dropped some acid and realized we didn't know wtf we had been doing.

Lol nice.

[–]AlpraCreamNotSoothing 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

I probably have a ton, but a recent one from about a year ago, I mixed phenibut and ambian. I was blacked out for the most part, but I remember falling down constantly and having to literally crawl to my bed. It was like a scene from wolf of wallstreet. I was bruised up all over from that.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Yeah, that will do it haha. I gave up on phenibut after taking too much and getting the spins and puking up some pizza I ate. Funny that I puked a little, made a frozen pizza, puked again, went to bed still spinning. Did way too much of that shit. It was kinda nice in decent doses but I'm staying away from anything like that (including whiskey).

[–]ForLol_Serious())-D~ MOD 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

One time i was with two girls and i sniffed some xanax. I blacked out and fast forward a few hours i woke up and i was naked. Girls were gone.

[–]DrHorribleMaster of Delusion 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (8 children)

My love/hate is crack. Missed to much work and blew through way to much money on that shit. Ended up in some sketchy places just to score some rock. Tapered off of it over time and am proud to say I haven't touched it in 3-4 years. I still get a taste in my mouth once and awhile that makes me want to hit the glass dick.
But damn that bell ringer when it hits.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (7 children)

I used to say the the crack high was about as high as you could get (in that initial rush), then I tried 3-meo-pcp and realized that you can get really fucking high on that shit. I remember telling my wife that I've never been that high. It is weird to describe it but it's unlike any other drug.

[–]DrHorribleMaster of Delusion 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

Reading up on it, I would have to make sure I have just enough for a onetime thing the first time. I have a bad habit of going back for more during my excursions.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Tell me about it. When I started doing it everything was fine. Then 9 months later I realize I've been fucked up on pcp, etiz, nep the whole time (not very much stimulants until the end).

Had a new job and realized I didn't know what I was doing or how I managed to do it for 9 months.

Pretty addictive when it's super cheap. That was like 3 years ago though.

[–]DrHorribleMaster of Delusion 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

I think i just found my new drug. Just had my first Kinder egg and F me i only bought one.

[–]AlpraCreamNotSoothing 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

I had a gram of 3meopcp a couple years back, but I was too afraid to use more than a threshold dose of it. You are making me regret not taking more.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

You'd probably regret taking more if you're like me haha. Couldn't leave that shit alone because we would get so high (not to mention the anesthetic effect) at night then have the most wonderful day the next day. The afterglow the next day was almost as good as the high. I couldn't see any downside to it so I kept using it daily.

[–]DrHorribleMaster of Delusion 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

You are a good salesman. Crap. Time to invest.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Seriously only buy a little to try it out. I would buy a couple grams, do it for a couple weeks, throw it out, buy some more, rinse and repeat.

It really is a one of a kind experience but be careful.

[–]BenedictMinistry of Defence 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

None have 'done me dirty' but I'd say I'm not a fan of benzos by reputation alone. Something about people waking up in a jail cell and having zero recollection of how they got there...

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

A man that can learn from other people's mistakes! I like that.

[–]heapofjelly 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (10 children)

I hate to join the cliché train, but for me it was meth. In the late 80s and early 90s, ephedrine was stupidly easy to get by the kg, there were "diet shops" selling all manner of "white cross" pills out the front door, and canisters of pure e out the back, so for a while, we had stupid amounts of crystal. Not even for sale, just for friends and ourselves.

It came to a head for me after a murder and the related investigation by state police got into my head. I had abso-fucking-lutely nothing to do with it, but I was questioned about it because I had been in the apartment less than an hour before it happened. It related to a fairly notorious bike club - not HA or Outlaws, but if I said the name, someone would certainly recognize it I had been hanging out with a few "hangers around" types. One of them lived with this insanely hot redhead I had a thing for, and they let me around because hey, free speed. I got to meet a guy who was in the club, he made meth, and I taught him how make cat by oxidizing rather than reducing (CrO2). Their whole social circle was completely different than anything I had been around before (me: computer geek with EFF and -cDc- stickers on my 286 laptop; them: Harleys and .45s. Yeah, you think bikers use chains and hammers, but not these guys...) So out of my comfort zone I go, cranked up on gogo and trolling for cute biker twat and excitement.

So I am in this apartment with like a dozen guys, someone starts to squabble, I leave when it starts to look like shit might happen. Maybe a fight at the most though. So the next day, my buddy tells me so-and-so stabbed then new guy and cops are looking for him. A few days later, we pop by that apartment, ignoring the black and yellow police tape on the door. The whole inside of the place looks like it has been destroyed, carpet is all cut up and the walls and refrigerator are covered with gray shit (fingerprint powder). Carpet around where it is torn has blood on it, presumably cops took it for evidence or something. One of the guys I was with starts cutting carpet up mumbling about a ritual - some of these guys were into black magic or some stupid thing - their group was into some pretty fucked up religion that had a racist component, something about how lighter skin is closer to god. Look, whatfuckingever, I just want to go balls deep in this girl, I didn't make a study of the asinine shit that some of them believed. So anyway, while we were there, cops came. I guess neighbors called them when they heard us. Two uniformed idiots. We were in a crime scene where we weren't supposed to be, and we were smoking weed. It was kinda funny - there was street parking directly im front of this second floor apartment, and it was snowing pretty hard, and instead of bothering to bust us for the pot, one of the cops just chucked our little porcelain bowl out the door. I guess the snow had obscured his view and he didn't remember the crowded street parking out front, because he threw it and turned back to face us and there was a loud BANG as it hit the window or door of a car and the surprised and embarrassed look on his face just accented how damned funny it was.

Anyway, so he had our IDs, and shortly after, the SBI questioned me, I guess they had a big investigation of this group in general and the murder was just one more part of it. I didn't know shit and they saw that, but the whole thing was like rubbing my face in the fact that I was just out of my league in this group. A few days or a week later, I was flying down snow covered mountain roads in the middle of the night with my headlights off, wired out of my mind on a three day binge, and sure they wee following me. I was parking on neighborhood side streets running through people's back yards, in the front of all night grocery stores and out the employee doors in the back, jumping off the loading dock and into bushes behind the store - all to get away from fucking nobody. I had long conversations with people who turned into rays of light and disappeared, hell, you guys know the drill. A shit ton of IV meth and days of no sleep or food will make a new (and lesser) man out of you.

A short time after that, I was on a payphone (thank you redbox, my trusty modded Radio Shack dialer) asking a friend in my home state to wire me a train ticket home. I left literally all my belongings including my car and started from scratch. This would be '92, I think.

Believe it or not, this isn't a stimulant post, unless you count thec150 mg armodafinil I took at about 6 this morning. It is just long and rambly because you asked for it, and it was fun for me to relive for a few minutes. Now I am going to join my wife in sleep. Tomorrow I have two early meetings and an AIX box to apply some fixes to, and I dislike screwing with AIX, so I need my sleep.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (9 children)

Yeah, meth is probably my second. Liked it, loved it, hated it, wanted more, swore it off, etc. I really liked the shadow people though. My wife and I were seeing the same shit multiple times. Also the damn phantom radio stations when the fan was blowing or the shower going. That was weird, especially when we heard the same song playing.

Lost a job over it but it was a shit job and got a great one a couple months later. I'd like to enjoy it again but I'm too damn old for that shit now. Maybe a lesser stim like NEP...maybe.

[–]DrHorribleMaster of Delusion 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (4 children)

One of the reasons I have steered clear of meth, I can stay awake for 3 days without any drug. Figure if I did do it I would be up for a week or more.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

Meth was fun but lasted way too long. Also make my prostate swell (happens when you get older), which wasn't fun because I literally couldn't piss. Only happened on really high doses though.

I liked staying up and hitting the shadow people stage but my wife and I are compulsive redosers so it really took its toll on us. NEP is more my speed because it doesn't last as long, no harsh comedown, and you can snort it often, which is fun.

Probably staying away from stims for a good long while. Maybe forever. It's kinda the same with dissos as I loved them but probably not a good idea to introduce it back it.

That leaves lsd, 2cb, 4homet, weed, possibly other psychs.

[–]heapofjelly 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I always forget about 2C-B. It might be even more fun than MDMA, maybe the best of Sasha's magical half dozen. I recently saw a vendor advertising presses, I think 26 mg, for a tasty price, but it was on either Nightmare or that other market, the one that bills itself as being supportive and friendly. In any case, I didn't feel warm and fuzzy about the transaction, and these days it seems prudent to air on the side of caution. 2C-B isn't rare, and there was no reason to jump. Especially on a market that I don't feel entirely good about yet. It would have been an impulse buy anyhow, but having a stash of Nexus could have been cool.

I've never tried 4-HO-MET. Loved 5-MEO-DIPT, DPT and of course 4-ACO-DMT though. Is 4-HO-MET in that tactile/shroomy ballpark?

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Kinda, but not much mind fuck (like 2cb). Great body high and really colorful visuals (not really in the sense of patterns, just colors like electricity). I didn't really like 4aco but that might have just been the batch.

[–]heapofjelly 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

I honestly can't distinguish between 4-ACO and boomers. 4-ACO is more predictable dose-wise, IMHO, but it is equally chatty in the head (to me). You know how acid and 2C-B are like driving, and shrooms are like an Uber with a talkative driver. 4-ACO does that too. Sometimes it is good, sometimes it is annoying.

[–]heapofjelly 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

I hear you about age. That first shot, when you realize for the first time that there is almost a psychedelic component, as your vision gets brighter and wavey and your legs and heart start to sing - totally different from ear ringing "helicopters" you get banging coke. Coke would have killed me, nearly puking on shots and still trembling from the last while setting up the next. I don't have the self control to do coke. I don't have self control with meth either, but doses are further apart, and the LD50 is higher, less chance of death. Besides, I had to pay for coke, meth and cat were essentially free, sell a few grams to a friend and you paid for your own.

Reading my post above, I said CrO2, but it was TRIoxide, CrO3. We never used permanganate. Not sure why, there was probably a reason, but cat was crap by comparison anyway, we rarely bothered. Nowadays I probably couldn't even handle it. I do MDMA a couple times a year, MDA every couple years, and acid four or five times a year (aside from microdosing every three days). Shit, I don't even smoke pot every day anymore. Somehow by attrition, drugs stopped being the focus. Now it is all about work, wife, grandkids and stuffing the retirement account as much as possible while I can still work.

At least we have cool memories, mate. And a retirement full of fishing trips and acid trips to look forward to. :)

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

Hiking in the mountains and camping under the stars...

[–]heapofjelly 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Hell yes. Hiking has become our weekend passion this year. I'd post some pics, but, well, you know. By the time they were cropped, edited and blurred for opsec, they'd be small glimpses of rocks, water and grass.

Camping is next on the agenda. Day trips are starting to pass too quickly.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

We haven't been camping yet either. I love hiking and my dream hike is the continental divide. There is a place where all the rain that goes on one side of the US empties into the atlantic and the other side into the pacific. There is a stream that forks and one fork goes into one ocean and the other fork into the other ocean. I want to piss upstream of that and have my piss go into two totally different directions.

[–]abu7 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Coffee in the morning, Cocaine afternoons.

Cocaine did me dirty, there were times I would only stop when my nose would bleed, I would then get paranoid the fuck out and half a xanny. lol. I am off, would love some again but not buying it haha.

[–]deliveredaspromised 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I wrote an Erowid experience report about my experience with serotonin syndrome. alpha-Methyltryptamine and 6-APB. The most fear I've ever experienced in my life occurred that night.

My life has been defined by severe anxiety ever since then. After going through three hospitalizations within a week (all drug-related, starting with the combo), inpatient rehab, two weeks in the psych ward, months of outpatient rehab and panic disorder, failed counseling sessions, a bit less than year of probation, group therapy, and a year of hard labor, it feels good to come out on top of things.

I'm cracking open another cold one for you guys. Fuck sobriety! Sobriety can suck my dick.

[–]samwhiskeyMethod of Destruction[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

wow man! glad things worked out but that sounds like it sucked. Also good to see you here.

[–]deliveredaspromised 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Sometimes you have to suck life's dick before it starts sucking yours.

Glad to see you all, too.