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[–]JasonCarswellPlatinum Foil Fedora 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (10 children)

" What did this do for you exactly? "

I'm a little confused whether this is a rhetorical question or if you mean why did I write it, or when did I wake up, etc.

I didn't buy into 9/11 from day one. First it was an isolated attack - not a threat to 99.99999% of the world. No nukes, no mass casualties, and the bullshit "They hate us for our freedom" and "You're either with us or the terrorists" were dead give aways to steer the simple minded. It wasn't until a few years later with Michael Ruppert's explanation lined up all the dots and I saw "The Corporation" that I started becoming a truther and activist, though I was always progressive and Green.

While building a set for another music video I was directing in Oakland in 2007 I realized I needed to do more than just make pretty videos and needed substance and meaning, stepping up a hard-sci-fi project I'd started in 2001 and making it attempt to raise all the important questions and lesser known alternatives to help people, humanity, and the planet. I used to think it would be about climate change which I'd find out in 2015-2016 that it was a scam, and now I have to explain how it's a scam. Like that and other critical issues I realized ALL of the big problems are political and manipulated by the Machiavellian ruling class - but I didn't really begin finally turn all the way over until 2014-2015+ to seeing how it was all inter-related under their full spectrum dominance and really EVERYTHING the government and media says MUST be skeptically doubted first and then proven true.

After 2007 Janet and I moved from Oakland to Victoria and I commuted to Vancouver for half the week directing animation. I missed my friends and life and home and drugs and stuff from Oakland and considering the recession and the shitty projects I was bummed out - so I put my blind faith in the scientism of Big Pharma poisons and started anti-depressants (my dad and many of my family are doctors, so I was a believer). That destroyed and almost took my life several times. I stuck to it for 4.5 years and went from fit as fuck to a fat fuck, so I'll never be happy about that, and then another 5-7 years to crawl out of that pit of despair. On disability. I've had the "luxury" of being poor, immobile, with an abundance of time and curiosity. People say things about depression they can never understand, like love and hope will get you through. Bullshit. Only endurance and curiosity got me through, fuck the world.

Most of the last dozen years is a blurry fog where I was profoundly retarded though I knew I was once more capable and still had my intuition, reasoning, and logic. On and off I'd work on my project researching many things to use or omit. As a professional animator, I used to be a video snob only liking high quality productions. Eventually I got utterly bored of stupid documentaries ignoring the obvious and being painfully dull without context. I rediscovered YouTube and all the wonderful content, even with shitty video presentations. I also discovered CONTEXT and dived into every conspiracy theory out there and woke up hard core in 2015-2017+ always finding more mind-blowing things that were untrue or exceptionally limited.

After that it's all been very easy and predictable, not just for me, but for many of the regular channels I post. I like listening (audio reading) at high speeds, leaving my eyes and hands free to multitask and do other things, with the option to glance at the video when necessary. That's the major reason why I don't post articles. So I'm far from the only one who saw this coming, and certainly not the only one on SaidIt, though I think we're all a little surprised how neatly all their narratives came together and enveloped the entire world. I find it's like how it's one thing to see people do things in the movies all the time and another to see it in person. We knew the globalist Zionist technocratic corporatocracy totalitarianism is virtually unstoppable and we were overdue for the next "event", but we didn't really expect the all out domination despite being based on such shitty flimsy evidence (which they never really need).

I think I got carried away with my answer.

[–][deleted] 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (9 children)

Love and hope will get you through depression? Wow these people are insane. There is no love nor hope in a depressed state. Your mind simply can't register them as such. You know this, obviously. Man, the cluelesness people spout sometimes, it's impressively awful. I took one half of an anti-depressant once (I was suffering from burn-out but not from depression) and that thing turned me murderously violent. I resisted these impulses that were diametrically opposite who I am.

I was earning $200k/year back then and because stupid doc said something like "well I don't have any other answers for you" I burnt out on my own when my insurance would have shelled out big bucks until I got back on my feet. Thanks doc. Actually, I can say with confidence that NOT A SINGLE MD ever helped me. The guy who did my birth lost his license that time, and it goes on from there. It's my superpower: get fucked up by docs. Poisons is right my dude. I also went from fit as fuck to fat as fuck, from Lyme disease though. I fixed my depression using GHB, which back then was legal and a KNOWN CURE for it. I synthesized it myself and cured it. =D

Yeah you did get carried away, but it allowed me to get to know you better and see that we have things in common besides SaidIt. It was a rhetorical question, but having vision is something nobody can ever take away from you, and can be extremely useful. Takes a good mind, too.

Cheers =D

[–]JasonCarswellPlatinum Foil Fedora 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (8 children)

You know of what you speak on depression. It's profoundly so much more than just being extra sad, which is what too many people think.

The "good" thing about taking drugs as you did and/or recreationally is that eventually it's over. The greatest problem IMO is when it becomes habitual, prescribed on a regular basis, or is a vaccine that can be almost like a permanent allergic reaction - creating a permanent state of misery and harm.

I take it you've seen /s/Lyme, though I haven't posted there in a while not having seen anything on it since. It really fucked up and almost killed my Aunt until they finally figured out what was ailing her, after years, and now she's still dealing with it in her diminished capacity.

GHB is good for fun (though it scares me with the passing out) and orgies - and medicinally too. An Oakland friend was waterskiing, face-firsted into the water, his legs flipped over and hit his head and he broke his back. He was not parallelized but is in perpetual pain and only GHB helps him. Unfortunately he and his family have other problems too.

[–][deleted] 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (7 children)

Yes, I've used it extensively for fun as well. But that was after my 10g/night for 10 months cure for depression. I had a binder full of studies on the stuff, demonstrating how it is utterly harmless and the almost uncountable health benefits, as well as the anti-addictiveness and cure for depression properties. It was acknowledge as such in Italy back sometime in the 1990s IIRC. Dunno if it is anymore. I mean Big Pharma has got to sell their SSRIs right. I ended up recycling the paper and using the binder for something else, figuring that the studies would always remain on PubMed. Oh, how gullible I was.

[–]JasonCarswellPlatinum Foil Fedora 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (6 children)

I didn't know about the anti-depressive properties, though it reasons to stand considering other similar substances - ketamine (my fave and also happens to be the only thing that worked for me and is finally being embraced for chronic depression in the west), 5meo DMT (a fave), nitrous oxide (another fave, and none of these have "hangovers" and can't OD unless you go out of your way to be stupid), MDMA, psilocybin, etc. The "problem" with these is their patents don't make money for Big Pharma.

I still fear the passing out and vomiting with G. It also makes one sloppy the way drunks get, just not as stupid, and horny instead.

Maybe your research is on https://MAPS.org ? https://duckduckgo.com/?q=maps+psychedelic+research

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Too tired to check on the research ATM. I just wanted to say, no, you use GHB as a cure for depression as a SLEEPING AGENT. You don't "Pass out" or whatever. You take a knock-out dose, wait until it triggers the urge to pee, go take care of that, lie down, and wake 4-5 hours later. Repeat for a full night's sleep and a good dopamine high to get you going in the morning.

[–]JasonCarswellPlatinum Foil Fedora 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (4 children)

Oh, I've passed out many times. Sometimes I didn't even know it. I've also pissed myself while passed out a couple times. Not a good thing, but mostly harmless. I've also thrown up, like others have - but fortunately I've never seen anyone or been one to throw up while passed out, though I've heard it can be deadly.

Yes, good sleep is critical. But sadly it's not always the cure for depression.

[–][deleted] 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (3 children)

Are you kidding me bro. It's not the sleep. It's the GHB. It's well documented. Or was, since we live in an Orwellian world for decades already.

[–]JasonCarswellPlatinum Foil Fedora 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (2 children)

Okay, that makes more sense. Though sleep is still critical.

[–][deleted] 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (1 child)

Yeah, sorry I expressed myself rather poorly... The kinds of doses that provide a cure for depression WILL knock you out, no ifs or buts. They will put you in an un-rousable sleep, or as some misinformed medical clowns put it, a "coma". It truly isn't a coma. It's simply the fact that GHB as a neuromodulator, FORCES the brain into a sleep state. It also obviously does other things at the same time, such as cure depression. I forgot if this was a very common occurrence in the Italian studies or not, but it was sufficient for it to be a recognized treatment. Oh how easily can things be changed under our feet: from harmless natural sleep aid for 65 years and cure for depression for I don't know how long, to terrible rape drug with no medical benefits in as long as it takes for a government agency to say so.