I very rarely find joy in the things I do these days, and when I do - it's only for a short period of time. Had my parents never had me, I wouldn't of been such a financial burden. They wouldn't have to feed another mouth and I would cease to exist. It's the best of both worlds and yet people find reproduction beautiful whilst half of them are either too poor or incapable of bringing up a human being to begin with. Humans in general are shitty creatures where the amount of damage we have caused to not only Earth but to future generations is irrepairable. Life in general is a struggle made even shittier by those who trivialise poor mental and physical health.