Jason,

Regarding everything you've said, I've had the same questions; You aren't alone. When I get to the point where I see a wall, or a proverbial 1000 foot Tsunami, I stop, and question reality, or what's going on.

There is little reason for regular folks for why they do what they do; they just do. But, when we're talking about the wealthiest pukes on the planet; that are generationally conditioned through lessons, and even genetics, for what they do; there's little explanation necessary. I wish I could feel sorry for them, but I don't; the things they've done, and do, show at least to myself they haven't got anything near a soul, which should be important.

It's just my opinion, but the lengths of our lives, or our 'prosperity' measured against society, just doesn't mean squat. I know many people don't believe in 'god', or especially the Christian god, and so be it. I was raised in an ardent southern Christian life. It was all bogus; clowns, and fakes. It befuddled me for a long time, I shunned, and threw off religion. I still do.

Yet, it gave me questions. In short, I'm very spiritual today. I say this, as I read your comment about your cat that you lost. I'm in the similar boat now with an old dog. She's a bitch, and bean a horrible bitch, but god I love her. I'm not sure when, between changing her diapers, but soon I'll have her put down, and I know in my heart it should be a magical affair, the fact she's of old age now, and lived a wonderful life; that's the testament...PERIOD. I should be, and will try my best to send her soul off with happiness; knowing I got her through her life, past the time that should've been without pain, suffering, or want.

As to the virus, and all things on that level, I watched the president's address today. The same day, the senate was briefed in a Top Secret briefing, the day after the rest of us were briefed(strange, no?) In short, I saw Trump scattered, and not comfortable with addressing this crisis, and it's one amongst many.

In the end, I thought back to what I've read about other 'happenings'. All took place over many years to decades. Like the Plague in the medieval ages, it wasn't just one year to kill off half of Europe, it kept coming back over 30 years; to kill half of Europe. I think this maybe the long road we're on now.

Last I checked of the official numbers, the CFR is at least 3%; hardly a regular flu by the numbers.