I know how you feel but there's no use trying to talk to others about this stuff unless they are outliers and are willing to be open about it. I've honestly got into so many arguments over this stuff that it just isn't worth the effort and time in trying to explain your position. They find the general consensus to be more credible even if you have their best interests at heart. It does upset me to see people be injected with experimental poison, especially friends and family. But at this point I'm honestly kind of over this COVID stuff. The worst thing I've realised is that despite the number of sourced claims you might have, and no matter how justified your reasoning is, the second you show frustration is the second you lose them. One act of frustration and suddenly everything you say is crazy and unreasonable to them. Everything else prior is made redundant. But they can shut you down with baseless assumptions and implausible arguments all they like. They get to use irrationality. It makes you feel insane and alone. Similar incidents with vaccines have fucked our society in the past (like the Polio vaccines), historically and evidently speaking there's no reason to put your faith in a state that continually chooses to fuck you over and over again.