I go to therapy literally every single week and beg my therapist(s) to send out the shit saying i'm good enough to transition but they still just outright refuse. It's so fucking stupid

And this is exactly why they are refusing to clear you. This begging and demanding is showing instability. You aren't going to therapy, you're going to a therapist to beg for a quick fix. Maybe talk to the therapist, let them do their job and if you're legit then they will ok you.

But reading this dudes post, the suicidal threat... they are NOT stable.