Q: I waited until I was 18 to have my first kiss, and I think I always thought that it would be amazing and fireworks would go off in my head, and I worked myself up so much that I was really disappointed when that didn’t happen. Since then, I’ve had a few good kisses with different people (mostly when drunk, if I’m being honest), but I’ve never really felt anything or enjoyed it with my boyfriend.
https://www.egypttales.com/2022/01/i-hate-kissing-my-boyfriend-i-dont-know.html
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