Some benzo/thenzo analogues are divine, it was a displeasure to discontinue them, but it was equally displeasing to abandon amphetamines, entactogens, psychedelics and cigarettes. Sobriety is a curse which I have grown to live with. I'm gradually experiencing joy again after all these years, but it is fleeting.

That said regarding the displeasure in finally escaping them, I literally weep at the thought of the discontinuation syndrome, yet part of me yearns for the bliss they provided. It's like the memory of a good cigarette even after losing the cravings. The permanent state of absence from worldly concern was probably dangerous, and has since affected my ability to connect with those around me.

If only there were more who sympathize with the plight that people suffer with these, helping to guide people off then is highly admirable.