Anxiety Issues

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Anxiety itself is only energy at first !

If you start giving it directions with your thoughts it can get very complicated stopping it. The thoughts as well as the short feedback-loop fueling itself.

I don't know anxiety. But i sure as hell know anger, rage and frustration. Very well.

Which seemingly is the "same" kind of thing. Only that anxiety is directed "more" inwards while the above stated are directed "more" outwards.

Empowering you to smash doors to bits you wouldn't believe for my 68kg. Without even letting you realize that you lost like two liters of blood in the process.

(Fuck glass doors anyway, fyi)

Every emotion passes. Quicker than you believe beforehand. The hard thing is getting used to the fact that these emotions leave you again. Calming you better than drugs can, if you bite your teeth and let them pass.

Without resorting to substance abuse. Which it is. Even when administered by a psychiatrist.

E.g. benzo withdrawal takes about six months. Even when you "only" were given doses below 30mg per day and they "sneaked" them out of your system before telling you to leave their facility again.

And i'm not writing about panic. Panic is something different.

Panic makes you sweat. A lot. Panic is more a "bodily" thingmajig.

All the "skills" described in this article have a big drawback: You need something to do them.

You don't need anything to breathe. You don't need anything to actually make yourself feel how your feet are attached to the ground. You also don't need anything to just start diving into this very here moment and your sensing of it.

Last but surely not least: You also don't need anything to accept. To let go.

I took me about three years implementing these patterns of thoughts.

I was educated in these methods by one of the best therapists alive, i suspect.

Once you can let go, you actually can learn what focus is.

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Benzo withdrawal is the epitome of suffering...I would wish it upon no-one...

Anxiety can be overcome simply through absolute stubborn willful ignorance of one's physical and psychological state. Simply 'do', do not 'think'. It is incredibly simple and yet those unwilling to go face to face with it will only bask in the anxiety until they depend on it. Once you get through it, nothing can stop you.

[–][deleted] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I dig it.

But not every person has the gift for this kind of stoicism.

I definitely don't have it. I still need a serious dose of amphetamines every day, keeping my physical and mental speed at least somewhat "sane". And my state of mind "calm" enough.

But I guided some people off those fucking benzos. I'm quite sure they turn you into an emotional vegetable. Or a fucking emotional wasp if you're in withdrawal. Some human beings even without realizing it.

I don't understand why they still are considered "gold"-standard for some states of mind.

If I take them, i literally just shit everything inside my body out of it. So: Never again.

[–][deleted] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Some benzo/thenzo analogues are divine, it was a displeasure to discontinue them, but it was equally displeasing to abandon amphetamines, entactogens, psychedelics and cigarettes. Sobriety is a curse which I have grown to live with. I'm gradually experiencing joy again after all these years, but it is fleeting.

That said regarding the displeasure in finally escaping them, I literally weep at the thought of the discontinuation syndrome, yet part of me yearns for the bliss they provided. It's like the memory of a good cigarette even after losing the cravings. The permanent state of absence from worldly concern was probably dangerous, and has since affected my ability to connect with those around me.

If only there were more who sympathize with the plight that people suffer with these, helping to guide people off then is highly admirable.

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Bliss is "weakness".

Watch me writing this, even though we both know, it "hurts" you more reading it than me writing it.

You either strive to be what you actually are, or you don't.

Mostly then (from my personal experience) only lying to yourself. Than you already so far did.

You can bullshit other people only for "so long" as I really hope you learned already.

Finding a direction, where your personal progress is, is actually quite simple.

Just start walking. The direction hurting you unexpectedly hard also sort of "catapults" you.

Into places, you surely wouldn't expect by laying back into this nice, comfy hammock of your choosing.

Life is pain. But never bleeding also implies never getting to know how much blood there is. Actually.