Well, I can't consider myself to be religious by most standards. Religion tends to be dogmatic and I can't say I always follow certain principles. But a lot of the traumas in my life have let me to believe that there is a certain sacred aspect towards ethics themselves.

/u/magnora7 You should listen to this too. One of the things that let me to the information war was, well, I've always been paranoid towards technology and the way people slowly became more and more hyper-connected to each other with everyday that went by, and I began to wonder, what if someone, the government or whatever, started using technology for evil? As I navigated the Internet in a naive fashion and became familiar with the way Post-Modernism screwed up the level of discouse, it let me to have a huge mental breakdown and I got involved with the far-right groups. (I learned the things I know about the Holocaust from them)

Now the most obvious thing to do from the ethical point of view when it comes to leadership, would be, well think of a plan of taking down the bad guys. I've always thought about doing something like embracing rebellion, but I've never had quite the motivation to go all out in such a fashion until I found out about the Vatican being behind the destruction of my hometown. (Which by the way, sorry again for my behaviour back then but It's like another personality was created in me that I couldn't control and was in a frenzied state for months)

Either way, outside of Saidit itself, I've thought of ways of exposing people to my ideas and theories and people actually love my content in mass. I always promote Saidit while I do this at the same time and yet despite people loving my ideas in mass, the hard truth is that most people are too apathetic and cynical like to believe they can even make a difference at all and give up without even trying.

Now It's not like the censorship is there and people are confused, they are exposed to and legit like my stuff, but are beaten by their own defeatism regardless... And that right there is enough to drive anyone into depression.

But despite all this, there's something deep inside that tells me that there is a lot of value in what I do and that I was always supposed to do this. And that there's meaning in the things I've done and the people that I've touched along the way. That's why I keep up with my work over here despite everything that happens. It seems that the larger my collections grows, the more determined and frustrated the shills get in taking me down but I also keep getting better too. It's crazy how much we've exchanged blows with each other at this point.

Either way I'm just trying to narrate what has motivated me as time has gone by. I hope it gives you an insight about what to do from now on. I would appreciate for you to stay around a little longer until I can share a large part of my records with you guys.