I stopped growing in 7th grade at 5ft 7 while all 7 of my white friends topped out at 5ft 10 and and 3 at 6ft 2 with full beards and arm hair and mustaches. All my friends had girlfriends in 8th grade, all my friends were having sex in 9th grade and I was still talking about the coolest porn videos I was watching thinking it made me sound devious. I started balding in 10th grade, loss my hairline in 11th grade, had a bald spot in 12th grade, and had the Dr. Phil horseshoe in freshmen year of college.

I thought college would be when i finally got a girl. I thought women would be more mature and considerate of my slow development. I got told multiple times by women that they didn't want anyone seeing them dating a bald guy in their 20's. I was being called short and unattractive by women who are 5ft 2, and women constantly made fun of me because I drive my uncle's old SUV.

Being ugly, I've wanted to kill myself since 10th grade. I still firmly believe that if I was white, I could at least bang an ethnic chick. I've seen balding, short white guys with the most baddie of black girls and latinas. But, the only time I ever got a second date with chicks was a fat white girl and a fat indian chick.

I've become so severely depressed that im now 20lbs overweight and I binge eat to deal with my depression. I have $800 in my bank account and after my car payment processes, Im only going to have $300. I've skipped EVERY class since the beginning of the semester and have D's across the board after having straight A's and B's for three years.

Being ugly is a valid reason for wanting to kill yourself. You cannot have success as an ugly, balding, brown man. I had to use minoxidil for a year just to grow a beard and measly amount of arm hair. I look nothing like a man should look. Life sucks. Sucks to suck.