This is the third week that I've skipped all my classes. I dropped two classes so I only have 3 per week. All three are incredibly easy. But, I'm also working part time at the same time. I bring back 2k per month, 24k per year while doing school full time. I'm losing my mind trying to find motivation and energy. I wake up at 1pm, jerk off obsessively, go to work at 4:30 and come back at 9pm to jerk off again and drink alcohol.

I can no longer see into the future. I've lost my vision and purpose. I just want to work minimum wage until I die or find a place to stay. I own 4 credit cards, I have a car, I'm going to college off my parents' hard work. I just want my own home and a place to go back to where i dont have to deal with 3 roommates' dirty dishes and constant humming and random times taking up the whole ass bathroom.

I'm dying. I'm becoming obsessed with credit cards. I'm still obsessed with porn and hand pics. I'm going to lose my life soon. It's almost here.

As I've said since high school, I just want a woman. I just want a woman that's attractive enough to show off, to be like "hey, look out how hot my girl is and how shitty yours is, don't you feel like shit?" Like inceltv said, I work my ass off til my 30's and finally get a hot chick off being wealthy, was it really worth it? does it even matter? I'll have spent 30 years of my life coochieless just to get a bombshell that only wants my money. That's a horrible life to live.

Guys, I'm ready to give up.