To be honest, the time when I will need to be genuinely mature, like 30+ is my dead end of suicide. I wouldn't be able to endure the pressure, it's all there now, as people passively agressively wish me finding a partner in a manner like "You will find someone one day hehe even if you don't believe it hehehe". In the age of 30 and above it's unbearable, going anywhere, communicating with anyone, at 23 it's still weird as fuck, but at 30 it's death sentence.