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[–]JasonCarswell 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (4 children)

I enjoyed it a bunch a bunch of times. It's nice lightly to put a wonderful glow on the world and it's nice deeply where you melt into the Universe and cease existing as a human. That's the first time I died - an ego death. It's the single most profound experience of my life - though I don't recall being born and I hope I don't see death coming nor suffer before it.

You?

[–]Entropick[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

Hey wow man, you're one of the few I've come across. N,n-dmt seems more common but the methoxylated is another beast entirely. Burning man would be the place which is where I think you probably came across, I know you were there. Maybe you know about the book Tryptamine Palace? I had about 100mg in total to ingest the first time and no scale, I knew what it was about so I felt my eyeball dose was appropriate. Mostly it was but that was a huge, serious shock. It's one thing to read about the deal and another totally to feel that. Yeah you described it well but that come up, the weird tingle on the palms, the fear. It transformed instantly. All the best to you Jason, I'll be sure to chat more.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/5519081-tryptamine-palace

[–]JasonCarswell 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

5 MeO was plentiful in SF a dozen years ago. I gifted many folks their first glimpse behind the Universe. I only every tried that kind, I think.

My first time was at a Burning Man regional, in Austin Texas, called Buring Flipside in May rather than August - 2000 or 2001 (I went there several times as well as BM and other regionals).

I've seen some folks get "the fear". I never did. That first time "returning to reality" I kept saying "sorry". I couldn't figure out what was happening for a while. I was laying down, in a weird army tent, emergency lights were flashing, and pretty girls were attending to me, giving me sips from their camel backs. I thought I'd been in an accident and maybe hurt someone. Eventually I actually started recognizing who all these wonderful people were and remembered who I was.

I don't know about measurements or eyeball dosing. We used a crack pipe to hyper-heat it without direct flame until the golden brown sugar vapourized. One way was to puff a bit to go light and glowy - or to go deep you just keep inhaling as much as you can while you can (doesn't take long at all).

At Burning Man a guy snorted a bunch. Big mistake. He thought it was heroin or something. I've only ever snorted white substances. I thought it was a hellova bold move to just help yourself to other peoples' drugs, not to mention unknown.

Ultimately nitrous, ketamine, and DMT were my favourites because they were pretty short, safer, and didn't have addictive or terrible side effects (unless you really really really tried to abuse them).

I used to seek answers everywhere, including philosophy, religion, shamanism, etc. The more I've learned the less I've been enthusiastic about those things. I never bought in to much of the woo, even at the height of my curiosity in those fields. That isn't to say there isn't a lot to experience, learn, and learn about yourself from those things. I just don't know how much of it is really scientific or scientism or pseudoscience.

It's been too long since I've partaken. It's been too long since I had a life.

[–]Entropick[S] 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (1 child)

Hey, that was really interesting to read. I'm down for a solid chat with you on this, as opposed to a formal reply here, like this. I can speak better in real-time, faster and more specifically accurate. You always seem to suggest you "need a life" or whatever, so I have some opinions on that, possibly. We've been hanging out here for a while man, I do anything I could to help you. I'm into the discovery part of it myself. it's been helpful for my mental health and those around me. I'l chat with you soon and thanks for the long reply. I think you are a seriously cool dude.

[–]JasonCarswell 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Appreciate the appreciation. Backatcha. I have "preference friended" only the select few that I agree with on most things, you among them. I don't know what that actually means in the grans scheme of things on SaidIt, but to me it's just a little red F beside your name that indicates someone worth reading first among the noise of the riffraff.

I say I don't have "a life", partly as humility, partly in stark contrast to my life before and in youth, and partly because "a life" as the mainstream would have us believe is not what I'm after. I'm actually far more zen away from mere mortals and like my little hermit life connected to the world by the internet. Yes I would like to find love and money and good times again, but those are not priorities to me now, though maybe the should be, if only a little more.

My top priority and then I can die, or do more projects, is to finish getting my /s/BittersweetSeeds story out of my head, written down, illustrated, published, and maybe more. My dozen or so other big projects either support BsS or are just nice entertainment. BsS is the most meaningful and important work I can imagine. I aim to be on the level of 1984, Brave New World, 2001, Children Of Men, Neal Stephenson, etc. and firmly believe I have that, if I can just execute it well.

If you want to help me with my life, you can persistently ask me about progress on it and/or specifics about it. I don't have the disciplined focus necessary to force it out of my head and through the keyboard. The illustrations will be vastly easier for me. Having someone to talk it all over with would certainly help.

And perhaps this might be up your alley too: I've considered my story from as many angles as possible. I don't know how, but I wouldn't object to trying to include some shamanic kinda woo on some levels, where applicable. Not woo, so much as, "discovery" - especially as it pertains to artificial intelligence and transhumanism. To really understand what I mean, you'll first have to draw out the story from me so we can be on the same page in the same fictional near future. Something to consider.