How I Experienced The Highest Levels Of Source Field Consciousness With 5-MeO-DMT

JasonCarswell · 2020-01-08T00:32:05+00:00

Appreciate the appreciation. Backatcha. I have "preference friended" only the select few that I agree with on most things, you among them. I don't know what that actually means in the grans scheme of things on SaidIt, but to me it's just a little red F beside your name that indicates someone worth reading first among the noise of the riffraff.

I say I don't have "a life", partly as humility, partly in stark contrast to my life before and in youth, and partly because "a life" as the mainstream would have us believe is not what I'm after. I'm actually far more zen away from mere mortals and like my little hermit life connected to the world by the internet. Yes I would like to find love and money and good times again, but those are not priorities to me now, though maybe the should be, if only a little more.

My top priority and then I can die, or do more projects, is to finish getting my /s/BittersweetSeeds story out of my head, written down, illustrated, published, and maybe more. My dozen or so other big projects either support BsS or are just nice entertainment. BsS is the most meaningful and important work I can imagine. I aim to be on the level of 1984, Brave New World, 2001, Children Of Men, Neal Stephenson, etc. and firmly believe I have that, if I can just execute it well.

If you want to help me with my life, you can persistently ask me about progress on it and/or specifics about it. I don't have the disciplined focus necessary to force it out of my head and through the keyboard. The illustrations will be vastly easier for me. Having someone to talk it all over with would certainly help.

And perhaps this might be up your alley too: I've considered my story from as many angles as possible. I don't know how, but I wouldn't object to trying to include some shamanic kinda woo on some levels, where applicable. Not woo, so much as, "discovery" - especially as it pertains to artificial intelligence and transhumanism. To really understand what I mean, you'll first have to draw out the story from me so we can be on the same page in the same fictional near future. Something to consider.

Entropick · 2020-01-07T22:16:26+00:00

Hey, that was really interesting to read. I'm down for a solid chat with you on this, as opposed to a formal reply here, like this. I can speak better in real-time, faster and more specifically accurate. You always seem to suggest you "need a life" or whatever, so I have some opinions on that, possibly. We've been hanging out here for a while man, I do anything I could to help you. I'm into the discovery part of it myself. it's been helpful for my mental health and those around me. I'l chat with you soon and thanks for the long reply. I think you are a seriously cool dude.

JasonCarswell · 2020-01-06T16:18:29+00:00

5 MeO was plentiful in SF a dozen years ago. I gifted many folks their first glimpse behind the Universe. I only every tried that kind, I think.

My first time was at a Burning Man regional, in Austin Texas, called Buring Flipside in May rather than August - 2000 or 2001 (I went there several times as well as BM and other regionals).

I've seen some folks get "the fear". I never did. That first time "returning to reality" I kept saying "sorry". I couldn't figure out what was happening for a while. I was laying down, in a weird army tent, emergency lights were flashing, and pretty girls were attending to me, giving me sips from their camel backs. I thought I'd been in an accident and maybe hurt someone. Eventually I actually started recognizing who all these wonderful people were and remembered who I was.

I don't know about measurements or eyeball dosing. We used a crack pipe to hyper-heat it without direct flame until the golden brown sugar vapourized. One way was to puff a bit to go light and glowy - or to go deep you just keep inhaling as much as you can while you can (doesn't take long at all).

At Burning Man a guy snorted a bunch. Big mistake. He thought it was heroin or something. I've only ever snorted white substances. I thought it was a hellova bold move to just help yourself to other peoples' drugs, not to mention unknown.

Ultimately nitrous, ketamine, and DMT were my favourites because they were pretty short, safer, and didn't have addictive or terrible side effects (unless you really really really tried to abuse them).

I used to seek answers everywhere, including philosophy, religion, shamanism, etc. The more I've learned the less I've been enthusiastic about those things. I never bought in to much of the woo, even at the height of my curiosity in those fields. That isn't to say there isn't a lot to experience, learn, and learn about yourself from those things. I just don't know how much of it is really scientific or scientism or pseudoscience.

It's been too long since I've partaken. It's been too long since I had a life.

Entropick · 2020-01-05T14:17:00+00:00

Hey wow man, you're one of the few I've come across. N,n-dmt seems more common but the methoxylated is another beast entirely. Burning man would be the place which is where I think you probably came across, I know you were there. Maybe you know about the book Tryptamine Palace? I had about 100mg in total to ingest the first time and no scale, I knew what it was about so I felt my eyeball dose was appropriate. Mostly it was but that was a huge, serious shock. It's one thing to read about the deal and another totally to feel that. Yeah you described it well but that come up, the weird tingle on the palms, the fear. It transformed instantly. All the best to you Jason, I'll be sure to chat more.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/5519081-tryptamine-palace

JasonCarswell · 2020-01-04T22:50:34+00:00

I enjoyed it a bunch a bunch of times. It's nice lightly to put a wonderful glow on the world and it's nice deeply where you melt into the Universe and cease existing as a human. That's the first time I died - an ego death. It's the single most profound experience of my life - though I don't recall being born and I hope I don't see death coming nor suffer before it.

You?

newguy · 2019-12-24T22:08:43+00:00

Ah terrible news. But if anyone had a peaceful death, it was Ram Dass

here's a chat with him and Terence McKenna in Vienna: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ih4Fg6P730

EndlessSunflowers · 2019-12-24T11:09:53+00:00

"We're all just walking each other home"

magnora7 · 2019-11-12T22:53:50+00:00

I agree, the two of them are pioneers in to new ways of thinking and behaving. Something we could use more of in this world.

DrStrangelove · 2019-11-10T07:26:40+00:00

That's a great interview, thanks! I could listen to Terence talk for hours, and have. Dennis is a treasure as well, and I'm grateful for him and academics like him granting new legitimacy to a tragically maligned subject.

magnora7 · 2019-11-09T00:38:30+00:00

They actually did have one with his brother, it was interesting. Too bad Terence died before JRE even existed, he would've given a great interview I bet

edit: here's the real JRE with Terenece's brother: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OQ6wFocx9M

Vigte · 2019-07-01T10:35:07+00:00

Purely scientific interests, of course!

Zettelkittel · 2019-06-11T12:36:40+00:00

That's "the second coming of the lord".

Timmy · 2019-06-11T06:30:05+00:00

Research is a good idea. Awarding patents to Big Pharma to sell 20 cents worth of shroom for $50 each, or more, is not a good idea.

HeyImSancho · 2019-04-27T01:01:27+00:00

The world moves too fast to encourage all others to be considerate in their actions; not judging, but simply an observation. The 'fringe' whatever direction that is, will always be outnumbered, and forgotten; anyone on the outside should be aware of this; anyone on the inside should be aware at the moment in their lives where they cannot hide within, they too will be on the outside.

Life is shown to only be 'fair' in fleeting moments.

HeyImSancho · 2019-04-19T03:52:06+00:00

Hey thanks for the link; chaos is an interesting topic, or perhaps science.

useless_aether · 2019-02-21T10:49:47+00:00

insightful comment is insightful. thank you, i am deleting it

wizzwizz4 · 2019-02-21T09:47:55+00:00

This website also says that low levels of irradiation is good for you (based on a flawed study) and describes the Church of Atom from the Fallout series as "the gold standard of civilisation". I think it's just taking random trends that can be seen by trawling through population data.

For the record, this is talking about elevation and not drug use.

For_Freedom · 2019-01-13T20:26:35+00:00

Mushroooms have many health benefits and mind expansion. The government has no business deciding what adults should be able to consume.

MDMA is in the final stages of testing for PTSD on soldiers and is looking like it will be legalized within the next couple of years. Legalized under the direct superivision of a psychologist who has under gone specialized training

JasonCarswell · 2018-12-04T04:01:58+00:00

BUSH Sr & CLINTON = CIA COCAINE IMPORT AGENCY into Mena, AR for poverty crack epidemic, 'DARK ALIANCE' book by suicided reporter Gary Webb, see decent 2014 bio-drama 'KILL THE MESSENGER' movie.

George HW Bush Sr = 1980s alleged leader of big congressional homo pedo sex blackmail ring, Operation Brownstar, FRANKLIN SCANDAL, Boys Town child prostitution ring, part of a huge pattern of abuse.

Tom_Bombadil · 2018-12-04T03:13:06+00:00

Bush Sr was the drug dealer in Chief. The worst of both worlds. Too bad it wasn't fentanyl.

useless_aether · 2018-12-04T01:30:07+00:00

Now if only we could find some ethical politicians...

good luck!

JasonCarswell · 2018-12-03T19:52:50+00:00

Oh no! Ethical drug dealers. They might seem human after all.

Now if only we could find some ethical politicians...

crypt · 2018-10-26T13:40:46+00:00

No astronaut is sane because its a requirement to be in the cult.

Astronauts job is really an acting job where they act to deceive the public and steal the publics money.

It's a clown show.

allie · 2018-10-13T15:07:47+00:00

Fixed.

Nechama · 2018-09-19T03:01:29+00:00

Well, maybe not everything :)

chrometits · 2018-09-18T09:48:42+00:00

Psychology fails at explaining just about everything, nothing new here.

Nechama · 2018-09-11T23:20:40+00:00

True but with narcissists they only want to understand the world in so far as they learn how to make it give them what they want.

magnora7 · 2018-09-11T01:56:49+00:00

IMO it's just a matter of logic. Those who want to understand the world must understand other people, and their inner mental world.

Nechama · 2018-09-11T00:27:22+00:00

I'm not sure they can learn empathy. If empathy can be taught (I don't know what I think about this), they would have to care enough about others and having relationships with others based on something other than their desires to want to learn it. The ones I've met at least don't even seem to understand such a thing as empathy or real feelings for other based on something other than manipulating them to serve their own wants and needs exists.

Tom_Bombadil · 2018-09-10T22:03:37+00:00

Why did you post this? Are you taking about MEEEE??!!
That's not cool. Cause I'm the best. Why can't you... Listen to me!?
This is all your fault. You should have listened to me.
Seriously. Ask anybody.

magnora7 · 2018-09-10T20:59:24+00:00

I think that's kind of the definition of narcissism, is that they have trouble with that. It's definitely related to psychopathy and sociopathy.

However what's good is that many can learn empathy even if they're not good at it. However what separates someone pathological from someone moving in a good direction is that when they learn how to feel empathy for others, they use that to connect more tightly to the world and relate to it. A true narcissist or psychopath or sociopath will use those new skills of understanding empathy to further manipulate people, instead of using them to integrate with society in a positive way.

At least that's my understanding of those terms.

JackDonMcLovin · 2018-09-10T19:28:06+00:00

DNA comes close behind.

Nechama · 2018-09-07T04:21:08+00:00

Great Sub! Glad you created it! Also glad to be away from Reddit!

baal · 2018-08-14T19:15:46+00:00

Good library, similar to the one I use.

Willing to answer questions.

magnora7 · 2018-06-09T20:58:40+00:00

No vedor discussion is allowed anymore. Final warning. https://saidit.net/s/SaidIt/comments/21u/saiditnet_692018_updated_terms_and_policy_to_ban/

magnora7 · 2018-06-09T20:56:55+00:00

No vedor discussion. Final warning. https://saidit.net/s/SaidIt/comments/21u/saiditnet_692018_updated_terms_and_policy_to_ban/

Solidstone · 2018-06-09T16:05:47+00:00

Lee112 is legit

HibikiBlack · 2018-05-06T01:38:14+00:00

Welcome dude! I hope you have a good time.

anderssvedaval · 2018-04-14T03:01:15+00:00

Pleasure, friend.

marebear1111 · 2018-04-13T18:39:42+00:00

Thanks for posting.

anderssvedaval · 2018-04-13T15:33:10+00:00

Your sub and this entire site has my support.

magnora7 · 2018-04-12T20:24:26+00:00

Glad to see you create the sub! I think you'll fit right in here. I agree it's probably just a matter of time before /r/psychonaut is shut down or taken over like most other subs. Reddit is on a fast decline, but we're just getting started here

Broken-needles350 · 2018-04-12T17:30:14+00:00

ye, bannit is backout, lol. voat and saidit are the 2 best options

i_cansmellthat · 2018-04-12T12:14:58+00:00

I think you will be welcome here.

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