I don't think that I'm the person you think I am lol. I think it's because when you're online, you don't have to show everything to the world. You don't have to talk about any decisions you regret, how you regularly feel, etc. If you've been working on something for years and failed 5 times, you still only have to show the final form of the product (this isn't about me, but I think it can apply to anyone). I think that's why I seem "perfect" to you when I'm not.

You still have WAY more to show than me. Like to the 10th power amount more. I don't show everything online either, but you still have to be capable of at least as much as you share online, and I'm not even able to do tiny a fraction of what you do, sometimes with a good bit less experience than me, and that's just out of what you do decide to share. I'm not denying that you have problems, that'd be a ridiculous notion unless you're some kind of otherworldly being or a made up person, which I highly doubt.

Basically what bothers me is you're just a better person than me in general. That's normal, but you get to me in particular because you are extremely similar to me. Just a lot nicer, better genes, a lot more talented, more level headed and together, smarter, and basically everything I have always wished I was.