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[–]Aurelius[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Thanks for your input. I see that Trump is doing a lot of good for america, and is not what the public smear campaign tells us to think. That mixed with my being broken, unable to make or maintain friends, living alone is just really doing me in. Dating is not in my future, I've only managed one night stands, making me feel like a ''fuckboi''' or something. I was just really wanting to touch someone.

I just work, read, sleep, work, read, sleep. Study buddhism and meditate when I can. Draw when I'm motivated, but I can't socialize. I am a leftover core without much to offer waiting until my breaths stop at last.

Growing up, the lesbians I knew in person were the least helpful people I ever knew. I asked them how I can talk to girls or flirt with them. They said I'll figure it out and that was it, got annoyed when I inquired further. I sought online for ideas and tried them out, feeling silly. But I am broken inside, mental, unstable.

There's nothing left. I feel helpless and small, drowned out by days melting together. I can't live like this. I can't. When the sun comes up again to clear away the mist, I'll go back to being in the dark.