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• Post title: Sometimes I feel like I truly will be alone forever
  

It's only occasional. Like sometimes I go into depressive spirals or I hear ab my friends' relationships and it kinda just. Hits me. The feeling not a realization or anything, I'm not completely convinced I'll die alone and unloved. I'm an optimist.

But I think ab myself as I am. My identity, my standards (low), and where I live. Like I'm an asexual gay trans guy and I live in a rural ass area in Michigan. Not a lot of progressive ppl at least in my sense. I know a lot of gay guy culture is sex based - like hookup culture n shit. I.. do not like sex. I'm very sex positive, sure, but also sex adverse. I don't like sex, rather not have it, and that's a huge deal breaker for the general population, nevermind the general gay population. So I guess I'm kinda scared my small ass dating pool is basically non-existent cause I'm ace and knowing my luck all of the gay guys around me aren't emotionally mature enough for an actual relationship and only have the capacity for under the table hookups. And then there's the issue of my being trans that just adds a whole other layer I think is pretty obvious.

I guess what I'm rambling for is; there's a reality where I'm not alone forever, right? Someone will like me for all that I am and on purpose? There's hope for ppl like me?