I have thought about suicide many times in my life. I've been suffering for disabling anxiety disorders since I was a young kid, and I often look at my future and don't see myself happy. I see the chances of finding someone right in a super small dating poll are slim, and worst if you are miniroty in a minority. But I kinda try to accept it, as I am selective myself, and wouldn't want a relationship just for the sake of it. I know relationships are a strong biological desire, but they can't be seen as essential. Our life worth cannot depend on someone else.Find a purpose. Maybe your purpose is to become a famous youtuber and represent feminine gay men, which is necessary and you could help others people. Don't kill yourself. I know life is hard and I wished my parents just had used a condom rather than putting effort to having a child, but it is what it is. Life is short, and even though can be tough, especially for the most sensitive of us, it's not smart to checkout early. as we don't know how the future will be. It might be much better than we can even imagine, but we won't live it if we stop living.