I was dating a girl for most of the time when I was a teen. It was nice being in love I'm always been anxious, it's kinda of my personality/disorder ahah Homosexuality adds to it, I think about the small dating poll and the much lower possibility of finding happy relationship and it depressed me. Also, how women are just more complicated/demanding then men. Eh, gay friends would be nice, but I don't think they're necessary. In the future, I will try lesbian meetup and trying to learn more of that world. I think I would like a butch lesbian friend or feminine gay male friend very much. With a feminine cute one I get along with there would be a risk of getting in love, I would avoid it if possible. Also, don't you see how sexuality can influence friendship too? Like you can have problem having female friends, risking to get in love with them? Homosexuality can be isolating in that aspect too. Yeah, homosexuality doesn't help anxiety.I think you should have friends based on personality/ intesest not orientation. Homosexuality is though isolating experience. I really don't think the worst part of being homo is homophobia today, but really being so abnormal. Like I'm abnormal in different ways, but sexuality is just one of them. But I kinda envy people who fit in perfectly and live as majority, sometimes.Women are great to date though, sexually and emotionally, which kinda make up the struggle a bit, I guess. I'm also a reserve process in terms of accepting my sexuality. Like in the past I didnt thing anything bad of being homosexual. While now, getting older, I'm starting to see the negative/depressing aspect and kinda being more sad about it/wishing I was bi.