I wanted to leave my gender on this account ambiguous for a while as a sort of experimental thing, but there are a lot of things I can't get across properly without stating I'm a woman. I was born female and have never questioned it.

I love anime myself, and sometimes watching anime about "cute girls doing cute things" cheers me up. I don't limit myself to anime aimed at women and can enjoy almost anything. The glaringly obvious fetishization reminding me something is aimed at men often makes me uncomfortable. Not even in a moral way. I write kinky erotica. I've done a lot to accept and embrace my sexuality. The thing is, I watch anime for the story. If I wanted something sexual, I'd read erotica or watch porn.

I watch anime for the story and the characters, and I like immersing myself in a fictional world for a while. It's always been an escape for me when I've needed it. It throws me off how often anime aimed at men overtly reminds me it's aimed at men. When I'm immersed in a story and care about the characters, I know it isn't real, but it throws me off how often I'm suddenly expected to sexualize a character. I've been accepting that I'm bisexual, so it's not even that it's usually female characters being sexualized. How forced the sexualization tends to be is just so off-putting to me.

I identify as demisexual along with bisexual, though I can admit that the demisexual label probably isn't an innate thing about me. It's probably a response to trauma, sexual repression, long-term repression of my bisexuality, and rebellion against the hypersexuality pressure of society.

Sometimes I'm embarrassed that I like to consume a lot of media aimed at children and young adults. A big part of it though, is even though I have no problem with sexual content, I don't like being constantly bombarded with it.

It's awful how much men are taught to repress their emotions. It's awful how many think they have to become female to be emotional. Cute boys can do cute things along with cute girls doing cute things. Representation in media of boys and men being unapologetically in touch with their emotions without ridicule for it is sorely needed.