I feel you've read me too well haha. It's true, I have been so accommodating to others. I've always told him that I wanted him to be happy with or without me and throwing my happiness away for others to be happy. I'm a people pleaser and he is too. I feel this situation is partly my fault, because I never really thought about myself and well, I hesitate to add this in but it is important, he knows I have a thing for trans women hentai and he's asked me why it's so different if he dressed up and still had his penis. I can say for myself that I can separate porn/fantasy from reality so naturally, I'm very much not attracted to actual trans women ( I honestly don't watch live action porn much at all) and with that, I feel I may have given him some "affirmation" that this relationship with him being gender fluid could work out and he gets upset/confused as to why I'm not attracted to him that way. I still love him and truly want what's best for him, so I'd want him to get therapy on this because I think he just has a kink for it plus self esteem issues on being desirable as a man. I've got some serious thinking to do and you're probably right that I need a break. Thanks for the reply.