The only woman that agreed to a second date got her schedule this week and she's unopen. I don't know how I feel. I'm rushing things. But, I honestly don't feel like waiting two weeks for a second date, spending another $60 on a date, and then not getting to touch hands only to wait ANOTHER two weeks for a possible third date.

Now that I've been on dates, I just don't care anymore. I just want touch hands. But, it's a two lane highway. I can't see a woman's hands via their pics on Tinder. So, I gotta wait until the date to see her hands. If I get to the date and her hands are trash, then I'm stuck paying $60 for no reason. On the other hand(no pun intended), I go on a date with a woman with nice hands. I spend $60 on three dates, plus gas for a total of $225, and I DONT get to touch her hands WHILE going through the psychological horrors of dating? Kinda ass.

As IncelTV would say, I've been letting the blackpill guide me. I'm dating weird looking white women. Brown women are still ethnic-taxing me. I still gotta go through damn-near a week of talking to a brown woman before she'll even CONFIRM a date. Meanwhile, I can send 6 messages to a white girl "Hey what's up", "That's cool", "You a lunch or dinner girl?", "How about Dinner at 6pm Friday?", "Okay, I'll text you an hour before. Have a good week". But with brown women it's: "You a lunch or dinner girl?", "Uhhhh, I don't know. I guess I could do either one...", "Okay, when are you open then? You usually free for lunch or dinner?", "uuuuh, I guess it depends on the day", "Okay, then what day are you open?".

Just constant mind games and circling back and forth. The blackpill. I need a brown woman because brown women here have nice hands. They actually wear nail polish and acrylics. Damn near every white woman here is a nail biter and that's icky. The white girls that actually wear acrylics and nail polish are your blonde, upper-class, blue-eyed Stacy's that would never give me a second look. But there are no brown women on Tinder. Latinas stay inside their communities and only venture out for white dudes. Blacks on Tinder are all super-lightskinned and white-passing and you guys KNOW that light-skinned black women are NOTORIOUS for thinking they're better than black people.

I just don't know how I feel about fighting for dates with a brown woman. $225 for three dates and a CHANCE to touch some hands is expensive. I can buy like 50 handpics of the perfect hands for that. $225 for imperfect hands is a bit much.

I don't know what to do anymore. My primary objective was to get a date. I no longer hate women or care when I see a couple in public. But I still want to touch hands. The process is just going to take forever with the blackpill showing me how women work.