Some soycuck in the replies had a similar experience

"ThePillowMints14 points3 days ago I read this post and your last one and I can feel your pain. I went through something very similar that spanned my last two years of college.

There was a girl I spent a good amount of time with since we had many classes together. It started as us just studying together but led to her and I hanging out on campus together outside of class. My other friends told me multiple times that she was into me, and as time went by I realized how much I enjoyed talking to her and how seeing her was the highlight of my day, and I fell for her. I decided to make my move and ask her out at the end of the school year and she gave a disinterested maybe and kept her distance from me over the last few days of class. I was distraught but didn't blame her and assumed I somehow fucked it up. After the summer went by, I was expecting her to keep her distance from me, but to my surprise she added me to a bunch of her group chats and talked to me like nothing happened. I took this as her being interested somehow, but as time went by I realized she was avoiding any one on one situations with me but including me in as many group situations as possible. At one point she got playfully angry at me and my friend because we ditched class to smoke and she texted us that we had to take her out for pizza to make up for leaving her all alone in class. We met at the place but my other friend was running late and she refused to enter and sit at the booth I got until the other friend arrived. She proceeded to talk about some guy at her job she wanted to date. I started ignoring her shit in the group chats and responding to her messages way slower, and it took her a day to notice. She was getting so frustrated that I wasn't giving her attention. I was convinced by other friends that she really did like me because if I was really this "creepy nice guy" I was afraid of being, she wouldn't be getting mad I was ignoring her. So I decided to give it one more shot. She wanted to do a bar crawl for her 21st birthday so not only did she send an invitation to my friend and I in the group chat with just the three of us, she literally proposed four different nights we could do it in hopes that we'd both be able to make it. Leading up to the night she started ignoring me again, and once the night happened, she spent the whole time avoiding me and ignoring me. At one point she said she wished her boyfriend was there. I remember standing outside in pouring rain for 40 minutes waiting for my Uber that night, on one hand I was relieved that this bullshit was finally over but I was heartbroken and humiliated.

It's now been a few years and I'm still bitter and sad. I don't understand what happened, she was comfortable around me and we got along super well when we were friends, and even though she didnt want any type of relationship, she dropped hints all over and once I tried accepting the implied rejection, she'd do everything in her power to reel me back in. She fucked with my feelings on purpose for her own amusement, just like this girl did in your story. Time has passed and the pain isn't like it used to be, but life just feels pointless. I'm 24 making almost six figures, yet I have nothing of value to come home to every day and fantasize about getting smashed into by a semi. I haven't pursued any girl ever since this happened since the pandemic started just weeks after that awful night and now that things are back to normal, I work 60 hour weeks and don't have the time or energy to make a tinder profile.

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Even though I never cried, I was mostly bedridden for that whole weekend. One thing that surprisingly helped me was playing this game called Gris. It was a short indie game I had gotten on sale and I played it in one sitting that weekend. It's a sad game with sad music but a beautiful watercolor aesthetic that tells a story about a girl that's grieving a loss, not sure why but it made me feel better when I was done. Kind of like how sad music is better for you than upbeat music when you're down."

AND HE STILL DIDN'T WANT TO COME OFF AS A NICE GUY MUHSOOYNIST LMAO. This is peak clownworld.