Here's the link to the channel I'm suggesting. It's better than most of its kind floating around youtube. A cool starting point would be her first video and clearing up misconceptions that people may have about the purpose of her channel. I really like this deconstruction of noah's ark. Another one I particularly enjoyed is the seven times paul contradicted jesus video.
I'm subscribed to her myself because I enjoy studying both sides of a debate or controversy as well as having my own reservations about christianity.
Back when I was smol child, I intuitively knew there is more to life beyond what we grasp with our senses. Like some or at least a few of you regarding the subject of spirituality, I'm also searching for the spiritual truth which transcends the visible material realm we live in. Fact is usually stranger than fiction as many people say. That said, there are some things from the christian church which makes me question its doctrines. Come on, let's be real, contradictions abound in the holy bible. For the sake of fairness though, misinterpretations are quite common when the stories and narratives analyzed are taken out of context, so be mindful of this. Don't take most things at face value. Use discernment when considering all angles of an argument before making a decision.
Just know whatever road you choose, you're responsible for the effects those choices has on your life, either good or bad.