i just wouldn't get turned on. atleast i think i wouldn't. i've tried many times to vividly imagine women i knew irl that i thought were attractive, i tried to imagine having sex with them in different contexts. but i couldn't get going. i seem to need some sort of story roleplay of something happening to me.

if i could stand the embarrassment, if she wanted to be all dominant, that would probably work.

i wouldn't say i have any particular reaction to being admired.

and oddly, in porn, i'd rather see a woman be partially clothed. i have some sort of (weaker) disgust response to seeing a vagina, but i probably could get over that disgust response quickly i think.

and i've watched many genres, but i do that thing where i project myself onto one of the actors in the porn, i think that's really what got me confused back in the day.. but anything where i could project myself onto the person being the submissive partner. i used to read lots of erotica, watched alot of that hypno, would watch straight porn but imagine being the girl in it, would watch alot of cd porn and imagine being the CD.