It's your body. That's you time. There's not really anything gross about touching your own boobs during that. It's just being more aware of all the parts, mindfulness

Yes, someone else here who understands!

This is insanely awkward to explain.

Just assume we're all mature adults here (you don't have a choice, there's no age restriction here and age restriction does not work against false age claims) it's not awkward, no one is going to call the police on you. I will never understand why people get so bashful about explaining aspects of sex to adults and teenagers, just de-personalise and be straightforward without hidden meanings and analogies. I hope if there are any teens in this thread, they read the comments with understanding that touching themselves is normal and there's nothing uniquely "feminine" nor "masculine" and there're only "female" and "male" body parts.