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[–]aldoushuxleyghost 15 insightful - 1 fun15 insightful - 0 fun16 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

You are welcomed here. I myself consider myself more truscum, then on the full terf end of the spectrum.

Wish I could give you hug. Sexual trauma is not the only path to gender dysphoria. Internalized misogyny and homophobia is another way in. This world hates, HATES females and lesbians while at the same time hyper sexualizing young women. It's hard not to internalize this and it can come out many ways. Even as self disgust if you have been on line all your life and especially if you've watch porn these days.

What you are feeling (disgust of your chest and pubic area) is not unusual for females your age. I'm old so my advice and perspective might be of no use to you. But I will still ofter you my personal experience since like you I Hated my body from 11 to 18.

The truth is your mind and body are not done growing until your early 20s. At your age, your brain is literally rewiring itself from a child's to an adult brain, higher brain functions are no where near fully developed, which is why you are not allowed to do many adult things like drink or vote.

Your dysphoria may change radically as the years/decades slip by. For me my detached disgust for my body started to settle down after high school, and by 22 I felt pretty comfortable with my female parts. Tis is not uncommon. Though of course ymmv.

I don't have much advice, beyond you are very young, don't rush, take it real slow. Engage with your body through exercise, eat well, find fulfilling hobbies that are not on the internet. Last I would recommend you connect with slightly older desisters/detrans transmen in there 20's who have been through what you have. I don't know many, can only recommend GNC Centric (Ben is ex-transman lesbian, is) comes to mind... https://www.youtube.com/c/GNCCentric

Wish you all the best.