NO need for you to say you are sorry. For a time I did talk to one therapist and we talked about "all trans?". Yes all trans. We talked about the possibility of having one good experience talking to just ONE. Just One TiM. ONE. I am not holding my breath, but it would be nice for one to prove me wrong, or anyone wrong, and be a decent human being. We can rant and debate here and throw mud sometimes. We can be angry. Our feelings are our feelings. Our experiences are our experiences. I wished for a time that just one TiM would have been not gross to me.

I am unsure how you feel, or anyone else here feels, but do we want any of these experiences? No? We do not want to have peak experiences. We do not want to feel degraded. I certainly am not into the BDSM stuff either.

It was maddening, and sad, and depressing.

There was a time I was trying to help. I felt truly sorry for these people, and my compassion was taken advantage of. I do not want to be the person that gets hard from her experiences and bitter.

Sometimes I have to take a serious step back--this is another reason I deleted Facebook.

Having a heart and doing the work I have done with the elderly, and with children and other women and helping animals is something I still do, and I am not virtue signaling here, but just to say that it was no different for me when I first became curious about what was happening with people who are MtF.

I have felt very alone in my experiences. It is bad enough I have "standard" males chasing me whenever I go places. Married men will text me--even one of the guys who worked at the place I took my car. At noo time other than saying "hey, this is what is wrong with my car" did I talk to him, but he thougt it OK to flirt with me and personally start texting me. My response: "I respect you are a married man and the relationship you have with your wife and child." That happens to me a lot too, and I think, I do not want to be a mega bitch.

It is a difficult thing for me to find this happy medium when trying to maintain boundaries. I used to assume people were able to be trusted until proven otherwise, and now, feck.

It was a large reason why I gravitated toward the queer community. I was getting nowhere with my own lesbian community even as friends due to my height and appearance, gay men sometimes just say nasty things about lesbians often (Not all though, I have two gay male friends--they are great), and my striaght friends get weird when I come out to them as lesbian. They either do not want to be friends anymore, I think because they think I am interested in them, which is not the case! Does not work that way! LOL. Or, if I am friends with a woman, she wil think ohh, she can bring me in to her home for a threesome or get some on the side with me. It'sa really difficult thing.

I wish I were straight most days. Life would be so much easier.

And thank you for all of your words, I was trying to be as clear as I could with what I look like, and why they just keep coming for me.

If you want to talk sometime about anything, I am game!

I hope you are having a good weekend, truly I do.