There have been some great resources posted below. I just wanted to say that we will always be here to support women. Our only limitation is that this is an explicitly gender critical space. If you're looking for a broad range of viewpoints including those beyond gender critical feminism, you might want to check out the gender critical debate saidits. I believe Gender Critical QT is being rehomed here as well. There used to be a subreddit specifically for detrans individuals started by a detrans FTM. I used to recommend the subreddit wholeheartedly, but I do so with some caution at this point. The subreddit has been caught up in the purge. Reddit has been working hard to remove any and all viewpoints which may be considered critical of gender (particularly coming from women). The subreddit still exists at this time (thought it was temporarily banned). The top post still seems very relevant. Here's the URL for the sub https://www.reddit.com/r/detrans/

Take it with a grain of salt in the current environment. If you'd be interested, it could be beneficial to start a Saidit detrans community as well. You are absolutely not alone in the slightest. I hope you find peace and acceptance, both within yourself and within women's communities. Many of us have experienced some degree of gender dysphoria in the past and while we may be critical of gender, we will always have solidarity with you as a fellow woman.