I have probably peaked a thousand times during these past few weeks (JK Rowling "cancellation" being the first massive eye-opener). My most recent peak happened just the other day, though. I had been reading the archived "peak moments" from Reddit and had been thinking about gender ideology a lot.

Anyway, time comes for me to take out my dog (a big, drooly, silly labrador <3) so I get ready. I put on my sportswear, a cap, and sunglasses - this outfit shows very little skin but is a bit tight, I admit (not that there's anything wrong with that, but of course one can see shapes through the clothes). Anyway, we go out and I keep thinking I was almost wearing a disguise. There was nothing specifically feminine about any of my clothes. I don't even have long hair. I'm not very "shapey" in that sense, I've always had a more masculine body type. Wearing this kind of outfit made me feel quite androgynous, to be honest. Ha, wishful thinking. Soon enough I encounter a group of three men. They start whistling at me, catcalling, saying whatever about my looks and my butt and boobs, you know, the usual.

I give them the finger and keep walking but I kept becoming more and more livid. I was thinking about all these stories I've read about these outrageous "transwomen" who don't even bother to shave their beard, but can somehow call themselves WOMEN. And other women accept them as full-on WOMEN as well, without batting an eye. So I thought, why the fuck could I not do the same in reverse? Why couldn't I walk up to those leering guys and tell them, look y'all, you have misgendered me, I'm actually a dude just like you! Don't let these little tiddies fool you, or the fact that I don't have a penis. I totally feel like a man. So, can you now stop your comments please, can we all just be bros now?

Of course even the thought of that sounded laughable and ridiculous. Had I said something like that they probably would have done much worse than just call me nasty names. In that moment I fully realized that it was NEVER possible for a woman to be a "transman" in the same fashion guys are pretending to be "transwomen" - no transition required, they're brandishing their ladydicks and all, but sure, they are WOMEN. gigantic eyeroll

But for me? The real woman, woman since birth - this kind of role-reversal is not and will not ever be possible. My womanhood is not some performance that I put on every day because it's so much fun. It's certainly not some vague "feeling" and it absolutely is NOT something I get to opt out of (as I feel like my mind and body are in 100% perfect harmony with each other). I don't get to FEEL like a guy and then get a free pass to their privilege. But when a man with dick and balls says they ~feel~ like a woman - yeah sure, you are a woman - moreover, you're THE woman, and natal women are CISwomen, some odd, lesser type of "woman."

I was raging by the time I got home from that walk. This small (yet unfortunately common) encounter made me peak hard. I have all the sympathy for the very few actual trans people who suffer from major dysphoria and feel like the only way they can carry on living is a massive surgery and lifelong hormone treatments. I cannot imagine how horrible it must be to truly feel like you are in the wrong body. BUT... but. I am seeing virtually ZERO of these transpeople out there nowadays. It's all about these goddamn dudes who think womanhood is some act, some sensation we all feel. That it's something pink and glittery. They put on lipstick and WHAM BAM THANK YOU MAM, they are supposed to be fucking women now. What the hell?!

I keep peaking a dozen times each day, it feels. But thank all the gods in heaven and hell that I found this group. Sincerely, I thought I was going mad - but not I feel like I HAVE been right all along, and the libfems and leftards are exactly as stupid as they sound, just as I suspected.

(Just FYI - I am an extremely "liberal leftie" but I honestly cannot take their horseshit about this gender-crap anymore.)